Archive for the ‘healing’ Category

May 2, 2014

Just a quick Thursday good morning, afternoon or evening to you . The days are flying by and I have been trying to complete six books before it’s time to die. No one knows when that will happen and I have spent most of my life writing so I determined sometime after my accident no one will finish what it’s taken me years to write – except me!

Believe it or not they are mostly written – the most difficult part is proofing, making covers and getting everything just right to be put on Amazon. I had a contract with a publishing company for one of my books – the one on how to care for an aging parent – but they sat on it for seven years and I am blessed those years just finished.

I have reconciled, to accept my disabilities as permanent-only because of my faith in God, and my tenacious drive for life, can I do this.  It was a year ago today I was in surgery with a great neurosurgeon (thank you Lord) and getting my back fixed after a burst compression fracture.  I could be completely paralyzed, or dead!

To accept my disabilities as permanent is difficult, but not impossible. Such is life. It isn’t always what we expect, but I expect the best, and perhaps my vision will be clearer now that I am unable to dance all over the place! I can walk (it’s not a very pretty walk), and I have to use a can, and I can write. I can dance in a way, and surely in my head.

I am a stubborn little woman, and my husband still says, after 26 years, a hand full.

So the books will be done within this year. That is my determination. This is what they are:

  1. Lessons in Love – about taking care of a parent, giving them happiness until they die, and not going crazy or getting exhausted in the process. It’s kind of a love story about me caring for my mama for ten years – and we both gained from it!

I am exhausted tonight so I will ignore any typos (sorry!)

2.Whiskeyton. Has nothing to do with Whiskey! This photography- views of a lake and the surrounding mountains from a kayak. Took me from 2004-20011 to get all the photographs, and there will be inspiration (I hope) with each photo, and a Bible verse below. I think, whether you believe in the Bible or not, it is a great book for training in life. It will be for children and adults.

3. The Last Resort – Photographs (again), a  view of the homeless in my area, and of course some interviews and thoughts on the scenario.

4.  Toll 63 – a very interesting book about the lives of an oilman in the early days, a disabled and vibrant young woman, and what transpires when they join forces.  It progresses and follows the life of one of their twins.  The time spans from 1916 to this very day!  I love it so far – do you think I am predjudice?

4.  The Best Bedtime Stories. Positive and fun, the stories are done and I am just waiting for the illustrations.

5.  Poetry, Prose and Private Property.  This book could spares no details and touches every aspect of being human!

I am not trying to brag, there are so many unbelievable authors, but I feel good about my work.  I feel like it is from the heart, experience, and always with a positive overtone – no matter how difficult the experience.

Therein is why my posts have been thin in nature.

I am not trying to brag, but I am not a “salesperson” and if I don’t know the quality of my own “products” I should not sell!  I do think God gives each of us a gift and I am working hard at using it!

Well, that’s it for now. Just an update as to where I have been. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE – don’t waste a second of your precious life in anger, fear, or hate. It is NOT WORTH IT as you truly will be the one who pays the big price.

LOVE ONE ANOTHER. I love you for reading! I love you for being my brother and sister human beings! God bless you and your families. I mean it sincerely!

Good Day!

April 16, 2014

I fell yesterday.  My feet did something out of my control and down I went.  The tile is hard, but at least I was able to hit with less impact than if I were unable to think!  I laid there and didn’t move for a bit.  I burst into tears and they fell until I had lines of tears across my face.  Then I turned, got up and got the ice.  I rested on it for thirty minutes or so, and then continued making dinner.

I wasn’t happy, but I was able to get up and I knew I would just be sore in the morning.

This morning I awoke and opened the door to let my dog out to say good morning to the world.

I looked and the trees moved gently swaying to the rhythm of the wind. The cross between the chil of winter and the entry of mild spring days made the air perfect and I felt grateful still. The fragrance of the orange blossoms is lush and soft to inhale.

Glass chimes welcomed the breeze and ever so gently they swayed with the new green dotted across the yard. Even the wild weeds were graced with flowers and had a place of beauty and importance in my view.

An orchestra of birds sang a song of newly found places to build their nests. I am seeing through the eyes of the child still within me. Though I have seen it many times, I cannot crease to find the beauty of what I see so intense.   I want to run and lay in the grass and look into the trees from a different view.

I thank God for every little leaf and flower, for the mocking bird, who is not mocking – but singing the song of every one of his neighbors. He sits and proudly fills the air with music. Every once in a while a burst of wind comes, and the rhythm of the branches and the sound of invisible wafts of wind fill the air. It seems the birds stop to listen too.

I may never climb a tree again, or stand at the top of a peak with arms out praising God for His majestic gift of this world. I may never run in the sand and pull a kite behind me, with the longest tail I can make. I may never again spin in circles and move across the floor with grace and elegance.

But I can IMAGINE. I can remember. I can still see and hear. I can still raise my hands and thank my God for all the beauty within my very reach. I can still raise my voice and sing my song of words.

And who knows. I believe in miracles. If I can just remember how – I may fly again!

I would like to thank you all who have been with me since I began this adventure so long ago. I particularly would like to thank my family in India for the prayers, and thoughts, and constant support. It is still, even though I am no longer physically one hundred percent – a wonderful world, and a beautiful day! I will walk with my ever so wobbly gait and use my legs to celebrate for someone without legs; I will be grateful. I will never sour, nor be hard of heart, and I will love, love, love, as long as I am able!

Please Lord, give me, and give us all HOPE.

April 10, 2014

Renew my confidence in your promises, and let your Spirit enfold my heart and hold it towards your love and steadfastness.

I am humbled and ready to finish this tapestry of my life in a fashion that will imbue the majesty of YOU.

Let me increase my light from a flicker to burn brightly, filling whereever my essence is seen or heard, with your magical and majestic love.

Let my love increase, permeating all that is part of the moments I am given to live on this planet earth.

Even in pray meant to praise I am still a child asking for your Glory to fill that part of me reserved within, that is especially meant for you. Without you I am an empty vessel.

With you, my love and peace overflow. I am filled and renewed and able to move onward and upward.

 

On those days when I feel so far away, and my prayers feel like empty words, forgive me. I know that you know, because of my tenacious yearning for you, even when I am overwhelmed with sorrow and pain, you are near, waiting for the moment once again, that my faith in my unseen Savior and God will draw me home.

If it is thy will, let me touch hearts and spirts and speak with thy love.

If it is thy will, let me fly in my dreams once again.

All these things I pray in the name of Jesus Christ, whom I love and adore.

 

 

 

 

 

Rambling from the heart

February 21, 2014

Beautiful is a friend who always there for you, even if she should be taking care of herself.
Beautiful is kindness that comes directly from the heart, and is unending for those in need.
Beautiful is a smile that doesn’t have to be pasted on, but one that reflects joy and sincerity.
Beautiful is character that molds itself from life’s experiences, and grows in quality and positive traits.
Beautiful is being able to face someone and look them in the eyes and know they love you too.
Beautiful is faith that is recognized, and credit given to He that paid the highest sacrifice.
Beautiful is genuine motivation to purse something in life that shares healing with others.

Beautiful is a word that cannot be fully described, yet you know when you see real beauty
because there is a vibrance, and a shining glow that can only be captured with the word beautiful!

Be beautiful  – it’s possible for all – for beauty lies within the heart, so open yours and let your light shine.  When you love, love will come to you bountifully.

Learn to give, and you learn to live!

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Outside my window

Life goes on

Little Bird still sits on a branch close by

He peers into look at me and I look at him

Little wings and beak

Human limbs healing, but still weak

Red berries in the bush

Posion to humans

Delight to feathered friends

Life goes on

It never really ends

On to something new

Change is imminent

Guaranteed

God bless those bound to home

Never freed

Life goes on

Still all is new

CREATE this day

And ……God bless you!

Little Bird

December 4, 2013

Little Bird remembered the day she took flight for the first time.  She had dreamed of this day.  Her little wings opened and she shook for a moment with fear.

Her mama said, “Fly birdie, fly.  You have the sky as your playground and the world is a beautiful place.

Little Bird  took a breath and then pushed forward, out of the nest, and from the top of the tree she flew. She felt wobbly at first and then she remembered how much she had wanted to fly

Open wings, and open heart, she glided to and fro and felt the wind against her little body.  It was heaven.  It was as wonderful as she knew it would be and she was happy.

She knew she was meant to fly.  She was graceful in the sky and a very happy little bird.

One day she flew past a window and saw a young girl lying in bed.  The girl smiled as she saw the bird, and so the little bird dove past the window over and over again.

Each time the child smiled, and when the little bird perched on the limb of the oak, very near the window where the little girl lie so still, the little girl giggled.

One day the young girl left her bed.  She left the house with her mama and began to run and play with other children.  Little Bird kept watching and was happy for the young girl.  She felt that she had been a part of the little girl healing.  She knew smiles and laughter was good, and she felt good knowing she had added to the young girl’s life.

Weeks melded into months, and the little bird flew and watched from her perch as the young girl left and came home..  The girl smiled and laughed.  The little bird was happy, though she was sad too, because she didn’t want to fly away in case the little girl needed her, and all her friends had gone.  Still, she decided to be near…just in case.

One day the Little Bird ventured higher into the sky than she had ever gone.  Without warning a big Hawk slammed into the little bird, and she could feel the pain in her wing starting to ache.  The Hawk flew away unharmed, but the little bird knew she was in trouble.

She began to loose altitude and could only try to glide with one wing working, to land safely below.  When she awoke, Little Bird found herself lying on the soft dirt by the window of the young girl’s bedroom.  She tried, but could not get her broken wing to work right.

She was grateful she had not landed on the sidewalk, but now began to tremble thinking about the big black cat she had seen several days earlier.  All she could do was wait and hope the cat would not come around.

She fell asleep, exhausted from the fall and the injury.  When she awoke, she felt warmth and opened her eyes to find herself in the palm of the young girl’s hand.

Little Bird

“Oh look mama”, said the young girl.” “My birdie has fallen and injured itself.  We must help this little bird to heal, just like the little bird helped me when I was sick.”

   The little bird felt better already, and was grateful she had stayed near the little girl.

Slowly the little bird got stronger, and though the wing never did get strong enough for her to fly, the little bird now had a new home that was safe from the black cat.

 Though she would NEVER fly again, she knew she was loved, and found she found she could do something else that the young girl just loved.  She could sing!

She sang, “If you break your wing, don’t forget to sing.

Sing a song and it will heal your heart

Sing a song, it is very smart.

For if you cannot do  thing you like

You can create another joy,

For God gave many, many gifts,

To every girl and boy.”

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I am learning to sing.  God bless us all.  Keep those prayers active for the folks in the Philippines.

GOOD MORNING! It is a good morning! I choose it to be so.

October 4, 2013

Good morning to all.  I awoke with my first memory being the look in the eyes of the physical therapist when she began therapy, yesterday, for my feet and ankles.  She also works on my spine….for some reason she really didn’t realize how BAD I am.  I knew.  J

I felt bad for her as she showed real concern, and the look was that of a person looking at a drowning ship, but being unable to do much to help.  So the first thought was overwhelming – but then, being a lover of God, and keeping the faith, I thought about a daisy.

 flower

I can count the blessings I take for granted on each and every petal.  I thought about it.

Wow.  That’s lots of blessings!  I opt for happiness and pray for healing to the best of my ability. I will not let joy diminish as life is so fleeting and each moment counts – if you let.

This will be a brief post as I have much I want to do today.  However, here is a small list of some of my blessings.  I wanted to share.

Hot water for a shower

A cool morning breeze that not only wisps through the leaves, but whispers though them, singing, “It’s morning.  Another day to CHOOSE happiness”

My faith, and my faithful husband

My Children and grandchildren and family

The big eyes of my dog looking to me for instruction and love, and sharing her love all the while

A visit from friends

My fingers that work perfectly so I can type this post

Someone who likes what I am writing, and perhaps may benefit from my posts

Though I have a long way to go, the fact I am able to walk

The smell of coffee in the morning

Those are just a few joys in my treasure chest of blessings.  But if I think long enough, I bet I could find as many blessings as there are on these flowers!

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Look for yours too, and have a WONDERFUL time looking for treasures to fill your

treasure chest.  They are there!

I have a post about internet scams that could be helpful, and I will try to put it up today.

My husband and I almost fell for a scan.

In the meantime, I am going to dry myself with a fluffy towel after I take a hot shower and enjoy my coffee.  I care and want you to be happy too.  It is a choice!

Here is what I really enjoy about getting older

August 9, 2013

 

1.  When I feel some detachment to something – it is not indifference.  It means I have lived and suffered, and having suffered, I can draw back and see with my heart – not raw emotions.

2.  I can be honest and not play “games” any more because I know honesty is always the best response.  You can never get caught when you are honest.

3.  My tongue is my sword, and I have a well-honed blade that cuts with love.

4.  Because I am true to myself, others resonate with it, and I ring a tone of truth in peace.

5.  I have nothing to loose, but much to share with whomever chooses to ask or listen.  I will not volunteer to speak unless it is a matter of life and death; otherwise I wait to be invited.

6.  My personal demands are no longer of great importance.  As long as I keep my attitude positive and my heart true, whatever I need comes to me.

7.  My faith is enriched and I truly do hand my problems to the Lord in prayer – and then release them to show my faith.

8.  I have no reason to try to persuade anyone of anything.  I am happy in who I am, and only want to share love, understanding and joy.

9.  I have seen enough to separate irrelevance from essence.  I have neither the time nor the energy to wast on superficialities.

10. I do not seek to usurp power from anyone.  I have unlimited resources from within and I know it.

11.  I do not envy anyone of anything.  I enjoy others success vicariously, and applaud their luck and efforts.

12. I take most of life with a grain of salt, as it truly is a divine comedy, if we see it as such.  As mama said, “the party was going long before I arrived and will be going long after I leave.  I will just enjoy it.  The most important legacy you can leave is the legacy of love, and faith in the fact our Great Spirit loves us each individually.”

 Lastly, I am grateful for a mind that is still sharp, an enduring and healing body, and the love that people share with me.

Create a wonderful weekend and know you are worth loving…you are perfect just as God created you – accept you as you would others.  I truly care!

I am fairly sizzling with zeal and enthusiasm!

July 28, 2013

I have a long way to go in the “healing arena”, but I am on my way.  God bless you all and God bless God!

Never give up, and never give in.  Even when you feel the best is over – it’s not!   It’s a choice.  A new way, a new day, a new time to adjust your thinking to accommodate room for all the wonderful things that may happen, all the new challenges you will have, and all the surprises along the way.

You KNOW it’s not getting to the top of the mountain that is exciting, but the thrill of the trail winding to the top that is exciting.

I am as sure this morning, as anyone can ever be, I have great times too come.  As a matter of fact, I am pulling them towards me by keeping my faith, using prayer as an ally and being willing to work hard enough to feel the sting of “positive pain” in healing.

I am also of a mind that if you do not allow ANYTHING to pull you down, except for those times you allow yourself to mourn a loss, or even times to feel sorrow or sadness,  you will hang on to the hope of a new dream – maybe more than one!  Allot time for human emotion to wrench your heart, and then  onward and upward, my friend.

NEVER let fear or pain take charge.  You are in charge.  When the winds of change are raging, keep your faith – and if you haven’t used the power of prayer or faith – why not try to pray now.  If that just isn’t your bag, well, I promise, if you keep a positive attitude, are kind and work hard…..good things will come to you.  You are rooted with divine love and if you keep on “keepin’ on”, divine love will bring you to a new place in your life.

Dare to be what you are meant to be and do what you are meant to do, and life will provide you the means to do it and be it.  It is never too late to rephrase your thoughts, refine and correct your words, and take the first steps to reactivate dreams for your life.  Don’t forget, either, age has nothing to do with it at all.  Late bloomers flower bigger!

The most important and first exercise to do in order to change your life and manifest your dreams, is to exercise your intellect.  Work on patience, drop those negative words and thoughts, and every time you are about to step into another deep hole, take a breath and stop.

It is ALL a choice.  Every moment of your life is a choice.  Don’t think you have control over anything that happens.  Mostly we don’t.  But you ALWAYS have the choice in how to respond to life.

We each live in a world of our own thoughts………….by altering your thoughts, whenever YOU REALLY WANT TO,  you will change your life.  It will take practice, but if you choose your thoughts carefully, and change your consciousness,,, you will find there is no limit to the heights to which you can climb.

CREATE a wonderful day full of each moment having relevance and I will do the same.

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By the way, an update on my accident and healing.  I am WALKING with a walker.  I hit a milestone yesterday.  I can drive (safely) to physical therapy.  I will be going under intense physical therapy three times a week for three months, and then we’ll see about the walker!  And, even though my left ankle is still paralyzed, I was given a gift.  My right foot is numb on the outside rim (and all the way up my leg), but there is enough feeling in the middle of my foot, and my ankle works, so I can really drive safely!

I would never drive were there a doubt in my mind.  Remember, three months ago I couldn’t walk!  I am so excited to find out where this new path is leading me.  I have cried, and mourned, and now I am a happy puppy taking baby steps.  Yahoo.  God is good.  God bless you all, and remember: It’s a choice.”

Choose life.  🙂

I took this photo on photo booth right before my last doctor appointment.  I no longer have to wear this hot and heavy turtle shell brace.

Photo on 2013-07-01 at 15.42 But I am grateful for the safety it provided me the first three months.  The photo below is the first one after learning I no longer have to wear it!

Photo on 2013-07-25 at 21.47