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Another world – another dream

November 26, 2014

My dreams have become much more intense. I find it more difficult to escape to a waking state the last couple of months. When I awake I do not want to return to my dreams, but sometimes I open my eyes, see the lights in the kitchen, or hear my husband up and getting ready for work, and I close my eyes knowing I will return to my dream.

I see them clearly for days – with my eyes open. They seem to have a warning within them. I notice more and more the rooms have lots of people but they are under the commands of the heads of the machines that run constantly.

A man walks close to the door and is seductively pulled in to see what is happening. Then it becomes nearly impossible to escape, though a few keep trying.

The human is drawn in by the technology and then the human looses the power to choose – or at least is taught that he can no longer choose. He believes it. He must continue to be in a trance and keep the systems running efficiently. He doesn’t know why. The unit of humans is no longer and each is alone.

I tried last night to find an exit, to move out into the fresh air and away from the sway of the ever-powerful machines, and those fully indoctrinated in commanding the humans to continue to work until they die.

I made it outside once and there was a long stretch of beach, and a large tree in front of me. I climbed it and could see for miles, but there was no place to go, only the large building behind me. I knew if I went back in I would not be able to leave again, and I saw “words” coming to retrieve me; to lure me back into the fold.

I wanted my family. I wanted to be with all those I loved. I climbed down from the tree and spoke to the “words” trying to coax me back to the way everyone else had gone. It seemed hopeless and overpowering.

When I awoke again I was relieved as I had been afraid and knew the ending was going to be bad, yet I closed my eyes and went back into my dream to fight what was happening. I was afraid but I knew I had the choice to win.

I was once again in the building – this time I noticed it was huge and seemed to be almost a maze. I could hear voices but everyone was separated. Occasionally I would see a group being guided to another area and then separated. Everyone was so subservant. No struggle, they moved like a herd of cattle heading for the barn to be fed-or to the slaughterhouse….

I slid quietly from one space to another and then I knew I was going to get out again.i would fight with every breath.

I opened my eyes and it was 7AM, the day before Thanksgiving, 2014.

Here is a first for my blog! I am presenting you with and mp3 that I believe is great and timely.

August 30, 2014

I hope you enjoy!  Remember, and pass it forward!

Movie Reviews

August 12, 2014

A quick movie review. I feel qualified only because I have intelligence, taste and morals! (Actually, since my husband was hurt badly in 2003 and I was last year – we have watched (verifiably) over two thousand movies. That is sad, in a way, because we think holly weird passes the wrong messages to younger people.

Here goes:

Noah: The actors and special effects were jut fine, but something “lacked ” in the writing. If anyone was trying to see what Noah of the Bible was really like – this was wayyyyyy far off base. As far as everyone I have spoken with – the consensus is the same – entertaining, but nothing really special.

Under the Skin: For all the hype you would think this such an amazing move! It was- amazingly unprofound (is that a word?) and stupid. Yes, the actress is very pretty, and her nude body is fine too – but as far as the movie – YUK. Don’t spend your money. REALLY. It wasn’t a spectacular alien movie. She isn’t as pretty as Brad Pitt’s wife, you know who I mean, Angelina, and most of the movie was focused on her face. She has a nice smile, but as far as the rest of the acting – acting? Where? We watched it all because my curiosity is extreme, and I needed to know if there was a point I would be overwhelmed with the quality or story of the movie. NOT. If anything I was under whelmed. What a piece of trash and the time I spent “giving it a chance” is lost forever. Bleck!

Non-Stop with Liam NIiesem (that’s close) – what an unexpected A movie! I was totally shocked as I hadn’t heard of it, and it was one of those movies you can’t take your eyes off the screen because it is so exciting. Well worth the money. There is something sexy about that man.

Heaven is Real: I read the book. It was quite good, and a best seller because it is true. I don’t think the movie was quite as thrilling as the book, but my husband (who is crazy for wild stuff), even professed, he really enjoyed it.   A true story. I can relate to being “out of the body” as I was once after an accident…good to sit with family and ponder life and all that we can’t see.

Forgive the typing and all, I am still in a splint and with only my right hand (am left-handed) it is what you see is what you get. CHOOSE your movies carefully – they are sneaky in holly weird….we saw a movie (can’t think of the name of it) not too long ago, and NONE of the sexual violence was in the previews.

I had an attempted rape. It’s not funny, and it’s not sexy. Think of your daughters, sisters, mothers and girlfriends, guys, and don’t let that you see on screen entice you.

It’s your life – PICK AND CHOOSE!

 

BTway – I always choose “elderly or seniors with tags and categories as they NEED to be involved with life, with reality, with a part of what is happening now.  They have earned it!

 

Above the Clouds

August 4, 2014

Above the clouds my heart plateaus, and I reflect on this life, much of which, I squandered. For every right and wrong impacts me like a rapidly moving train.

As the miles skirt by, beyond the speed of my thoughts, I anticipate the return to the true vision of the life I have created beyond the ruins of another time and place.

There were alcohol induced sexual frenzies driven by the images of the media, and only thwarted by the mornings and the return of spirit.

The obsession and repetitive thought and images drove me towards alcohol and drugs, and the eventual weakening of my own tapestry, and they broke my line of defense. The line of demarcation I should never have crossed.

I felt anxious to be courageous again, yet with the reoccurring thoughts I needed the those things -the irresistible spirits of alcohol and drugs; alas they waved me towards darker places and my light and energy transformed in another kind of fear and darkness.

Chemical madness kept me enchanted and repelled.

With spirit and thought diminished and besmeared, there is no movement upward and onward.

Darkness subdues and restricts, but light revitalizes and frees by scattering the darkness. Thus, illuminating the surroundings, arousing those who sleep, and allowing humans to carry out their lives.

After, I could see the glimmer of hope, and feel the planting of regretful feet firmly on the ground. With spirit fully in tack and operational, hope enlarged and change came to fruition.

For my own dreams and visions, for my own beliefs and desires, not plied with darkness and its companions, I am able to see with clarity. I can read the eyes now, and smell the scent of evil. If there is no obvious sign of love, I move quickly away, and return to tbe strength of my own convictions.

The Lone Tomato

July 31, 2014

 

I carefully planted the plants, and chose the perfect soils. Each day I watered faithfully.
I manicured on a regular basis, and noticed there were many little blossoms to become tomatoes. The plants grew and filled in and I watered them.

The sun shone down and nourished them, and I watered them.

Then one day I noticed there were no more blossoms. The leaves were bent downward and had the look of dying plants. The blossoms were gone and still, I watered them.

Every day I watched and watered. For weeks I hoped and watered, but still they withered.

One evening I decided to quit watering, and perhaps even pull the plants from the ground and deposit them in the trash. I was so discouraged….

But as God would have it, I decided to water once again. There in the midst of plants that obviously were not thriving was one lone tomato.

the lone tomato

Rejoice I did! Round and still green, that little tomato renewed my hope. The hope that there in the midst of all that “looked” dying and wilted, a single tomato thrived and chose to live.

I choose to live too. There in still life in me, and a spark, and love. Before I begin to really wither on the vine- which I hope is a long while from now – I choose to try to reignite that spark and move onward and upward in love.

Never give up. Never give in – except to try to do God’s will. I dropped to my knees in prayer a couple of days ago – and with all that has happened to me, it wasn’t easy to get down – or up – but it felt so good again to humbly thank God for hope and that spark of life in me to tend to, to fulfill what I was put on this planet to do!

God bless YOU and all those in your circle of life. Find that “lone tomato” and tend to it!
All is well.

This is what I think today

July 20, 2014

This post is my stance on what is happening in our society in the USA.

If I sound, in length here, wild and ranting a bit, I very well may be. I am fairly- no totally disgusted with so many things I am not sure where to start.

If you watch ANY news you will find the media pitting one country against the other. The horror of those killed on one side – the horrific splay of missiles being shot at the other.

Give sympathy to both and encourage then instill the hated and anger with each other.

Who shot the passenger airline down? Biden jumped the gun and with his hollow and unintelligent mumblings saying Russia blew the plane out of the sky. The “U.S.” concluded this. No, no, no…. those in “charge”, our rich and poorly representing government officials concluded this and the media assertively (but with obvious bowing to them) headlined it.

Russia against Ukraine – the United States against Russia. Sorrow, discontent, anger and then hatred.

Strange how hated is building for Russia since it gave Snowden asylum.

What happened to the Marine who accidentally went into Mexico? Where is the traitor Obama traded 5 terrorists for now?

Wow. One Marine accidentally goes into Mexico and is jailed?

62,000 children (and many mothers) come across our borders and our beloved obama makes sure he gets (I figured this out from the amounts obama requested) $25,000. per child to house and feed.

Problem with that is these children and mothers are being placed all over the country and they will be untraceable, melding into the 11 million illegal Mexicans already here.

Children are often are brought here by criminal enterprises that smuggle them through Mexico and into the United States. When they get across the border, the children often seek out American border guards. They know the Americans will help them and send to a facility with food and other services.

However, that being said, it is amazing with the violence in Mexico and the Cartel and terrorist criminals, that the children arrived safely – no kidnappings, no beheadings, no murders, rapes or forced child labor. Thank God.

Of course no one wants a child hurt ever, but still – how they got here is a wonder! Many have scabies and lice, and many have not had MMRV vaccines, thus possibly spreading disease ( if they enroll in school or are around children) to the children whose families questioned vaccinating their children.

Welcome to NLA (North Latin America), or MexiAmerica where Christians and white people are bad. I wonder how many of the south American mothers entering are pregnant? How many will land in rich households to be maids and gardeners for government officials and CEO’s of companies.

Some are being housed in L.A. and homeless are protesting because they are citizens and no one is providing housing for them. There are thousands on the streets.

It would be a good idea too, as a special amount of water in this drought, is being saved to wash urine and fecal matter from the homeless off of the sidewalks.

obama is a racist. He denies his white all together. If you wonder why I don’t capitalize obama, it is my way of showing disrespect.

Now to the latest fad-smoking the HOOKAH- 1 hour’s worth is comparable to smoking 200 cigarettes! Yuk. Slow suicide.

Much is made of cyber-bullying. I am sorry deaths have been reported because of this phenomenon. To me this says children and teens are spending way too much time on line, and on their phones. Duh!

Bullying in schools has gone on as long as I can remember – and I have a great memory and a few decades to have learned one or two things. Bullying is cruel. Where there are growing young minds, there will always be the mean ones! They are probably the ones who turn into bad adults. But my generation handled bullying in person, with people when it happened. There are some terrible things about technology, along side with the good, and I wish it weren’t that way, but it is.

Also the illusion that on line a child can have hundreds of friends is dangerous and a flawed misnomer. Much of what is on line, in magazines, and presented to us is simply lies promoting SALES! Also, of course, racism, anger, judgments, smoking, alcohol use,jealousy, and violence are condoned and promoted through movies. Holly weird loves to pass its messages on to the public.

Fact. Did you know only three percent of the population is actually gay or lesbian? Did you also know many state courts have turned the decision the people voted on (several more votes than one), to keep marriage sanctioned only between men and women, to accommodate the voice of the gay and lesbian community? The squeaky wheel gets the grease.

We live in a toxic, desensitized, technology-addicting environment. Some of the top shows are the sleaziest, most violent, depraved, and self-deprecating pieces of work ever presented to the public. Big brother is controlling the minds of all ages – has been doing so for years.

I know love and Spirit and God are still alive and well. I know that the USA has millions and millions of citizens that are still rooted in moral principles, and want peace between citizens and other countries.

I just wish everyone around the world would not “clump” the “people of the USA” with the government, politics and the media. That is the biggest lie of all. I know the heart of the people has hope and cares about other real citizens of this country and other countries I would love to see the “people” of all countries be represented fairly instead of by the corrupt behavior and greed of so few in charge.

There will be a time.

Forgive me if there are errors. I broke my wrist a week ago, had surgery to put in plate and screws day before yesterday, and I am typing with my right hand. (I am left-handed.)

Stay strong. Keep your line of demarcation for your principles and life’s direction visible and guarded. God bless us all!

I love to write – and I love your comments and feedback!

June 19, 2014

I believe we all have something important to say.  This life places lessons before us every single day, and to every single person.  Even if there have been days when you felt worthless – I am certain you have come this far in life and learned a few “life lessons”.

Two of the greatest lessons I have learned, thus far, are these:

1.  We must learn to forgive one another.  Every single one of us has made poor choices at least once in a lifetime.  I have made many mistakes, but what I really loved about learning to forgive is that when we do not forgive, it really only hurts our own character, and we head in a downward spiral by housing such feelings.

Just because you forgive someone does not mean you have to associate with them!  But it will do YOU a world of good to truly forgive someone.  Your load will be lighter from within, and you may be surprised at the results! (You may not – but you never know)

Once I forgave someone for a horrific thing they did to me, I actually felt better.  We all blow it at one time or another, and to forgive strengthens you, and makes your life better.  Honestly!

2.  Really, do not judge by a first glance.  I certainly don’t mean if you think you are in danger just ignore it.  A visual, and a gut-level feeling often does tell a tale.  But where we cannot judge is how a person is born.  No one has the choice of what they look like, or what color they are born.  Think about it.  We are all guilty of seeing someone we “think” is ugly, or fat, or skinny, or DIFFERENT.

No one knows a person’s history either, or how they wound up rich or poor or whatever circumstance they may live their lives in.  Don’t look at all the magazines and be one of the empty-headed followers that “see” what big brother tells us (as consumers) is good.

We have been fed lies for so long sometimes we act just like a bunch of mindless human beings.  I love not judging a person by first sight.  I admit it isn’t always easy – old habits die hard…but I have certainly learned that many of those “judgements” I made quickly were just garbage.

So why am I sharing this on this post?  It is because I think I was given a gift by learning these two things in life.  I am sure each of you can think of at least one or two things that you have learned that have been extremely important in giving YOU peace and happiness.

Please feel free to share in comments if you like.  I think we should all be heard – at least once!  Have a BEAUTIFUL morning, afternoon, or evening…as it may be in your part of the world.

 

 

4 MILLION women are beaten and abused each year.

June 6, 2014

Is that shocking?

Well how’s this for a shocker? That is in the USA – not a third world country! I tried to find statistics on men being beaten or killed by their spouse or partner, but I came up with pretty much nothing. I know there have been some such instances.

The leading cause of violence to women fifteen to forty-four, ( car accidents, mugging and rapes combined) is caused by their husband or domestic partner.)

Here is another stunning fact. 16% of young men between the ages of eleven and twenty are serving time for killing their mother’s abusers.

Something is wrong with this picture! Agreed!

I spoke to a weapons expert in length day before yesterday, and he was kind enough to share some pretty important tips for women who are, or may be in a position to be beaten,

or even worse.   Marshall also teaches a self-defense class.

He seemed appalled that anyone would touch a woman in that manner. He seems to be a really decent man. This is what he shared with me.

1. No stun gun. The stun gun must be held against a person 15 seconds to be effective. In an emergency situation, one mistake and it’s over.

2. No knife. Same result if you aren’t fast and an expert.

3. No gun – unless you have a permit to carry a concealed weapon, know how to use it, and are defending your own life. God forbid you are ever in that scenario!

4. No taser as you have to aim and hit dead on. Even if that happens the connection can be pulled off in most circumstances. Police almost always have a back-up.

5. Pepper Spray – YES! YES! YES! Have your pepper spray in a pocket or concealed within immediate reach. Before he can reach you, spray directly in his eyes. It has to be either in your hand so it is unseen, or concealed in some manner, because if he sees it he can block the spray from his eyes.

This is something Marshall told me that I found extremely interesting. Once you spray the attacker – keep spraying directly in the eyes until the canister is completely empty!

That is important.

He assured me that if you use the whole can you will have time to grab whatever you need (like car keys and a purse)-pick- up the baby (babies) – and escape.

It will not permanently damage the eyes, but will disable your attacker.

He suggested that if you’ve never used a pepper spray before, buy an extra one and go some place and practice.

Practice the “draw”- practice spraying – spray the entire container, and practice, practice, practice.

Rehearse it in your mind an emergency scenario. Keep in mind wind/or a fan can send the spray where it shouldn’t go, so be careful!

Another tip I got was when you are walking alone, keep spray in hand, or car keys. Don’t put yourself in harm’s way, and walk proudly, keeping an eye on your surroundings if you feel insecure.

I firmly believe if a man or woman is drunk – IT IS NOT the time to fight.  Drunks cannot be reasoned with, and sometimes get violent.  Also, I have known women who “egg a man on” – taunt him with words that instigate a man to loose control.  NO that is not reason to abuse physically, but women can sometimes STOP a situation from accelerating by simply being quiet and walking away.

Some good  advice is to NOT listen to music or TALK ON THE PHONE, when you are the least bit nervous about walking or running. Those things put you at a real disadvantage. I know it’s not the most fun, but neither is abuse!

LASTLY – I am aware that there are men who are abused.

I actually have known a man who had a knife drawn on him by his own wife.

In the instance of man vs. woman, I believe that men are born stronger than women…even a small man can probably handle a woman strength-wise. I actually had an attempted rape by a man much smaller than myself. He was able to drop me on the floor quickly.

I thank God I was able to talk my way out of that situation.

Honestly, I do not know how a man would handle a woman abuser, except possibly “contain” her until she calms down – or better yet, WALK AWAY! Get out of the situation, and don’t return for more unless there is a conversation, and counseling. Why put yourself in a volitale position?

I pray you never have ANY abuse (verbal or physical) – man, or woman.  Let’s try to use our intelligence to solve problems…..Have a safe weekend and God bless you!

 

 

 

 

 

Nature is Exquisite

June 6, 2014

After watering I saw droplets of water on a cobweb.  Call me crazy, but I think it was just beautiful.  The sun hit the drops and sparkled, and it reminded me there is beauty all around us if we just take the time to look!

 

raindrops-cobweb

 

God bless you!  CREATE a wonderful day tomorrow – moment by moment

Say what?

March 20, 2014

If you cannot do what you used to do – do what you can.

A good cry washes the eyes and lets loose of sorrow withheld, to begin anew.

If you want to see trust – look in the eyes of your dog.

You cannot heal if you refuse to think you will.

Never listen to words from a man with a heart of stone.

Remember God, and He will remember you.

Stop long enough to say hello to the person standing next to you in line.  You may see an unexpected smile.

A sincere “thank you” is a gift worth more than gold to the receiver.

Did you see the full moon?  Why not?  How many do you have left in your lifetime?

A good memory needs reviewing on occasion..  A bad one should be dismissed – if the lesson was learned.

Begin to see the series of things that happen in your life not as burdens, but as challenges.

For every kind word you speak to an elderly person, your heart enlarges, and your place in eternity is more certain.

Love children, even if they are dirty and have a runny nose, and are not yours.  They are newcomers to this planet and they learn what they see and hear.  They belong to all of us.

Remember we are all human beings, all flawed, and all overburdened in one way or another. Join together as if someone is invading our homes, as if war is imminent, clasp spirits, and then pray for peace, hand to hand and heart to heart.  We are human.  We are earthlings, here to be a family, to protect the earth, and to forgive, and love one another.

Now stretch your arms up, take a breath, and smile.  CREATE a day worth living!

Always find a way to laugh and be happy.  That’s my plan, and I’m sticking to it!