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WHY I DON’T KILL MYSELF

July 2, 2014

Since my accident and eventual spinal cord damage that forced me to have my back fused, my life has changed one hundred percent. Even more than the visible injuries, the injuries that are invisible almost make my life JUST a repetition of more doctors and often feeling like crap! Pretty honest, and it’s absolutely the truth.

I know – it sucks. There are days (and I am having one, thus far, today) – when I wish I could just throw in the towel and say, “That’s enough – I am done!”

There is not a day that I can forget I am now disabled permanently. Between pain and the “various” other disabilities, my life is changed forever.

I am also battling with major depression. I don’t really share with anyone anymore the battle I have not to be totally nuts! My poor husband has been stellar, and now I am putting lots of moans and groans, and depression, and down times, to rest…it’s between God and me – and you, of course.

 

Now you might ask then, why I don’t kill myself?

 

First of all, with suicide, there is no “taking it back”. “Whoops! Guess I changed my mind after all!” Besides suicide is the way out for those who don’t call upon inner strength. I am not a weakling – even though a lot of my strength comes from “self-talk”.

I will not give up.

There are several other big reasons, and the first being I am a Christian, and suicide is against my spiritual beliefs. But even if it were not a matter of my spiritual beliefs, even if I believed suicide was okay, I still wouldn’t do it.

It’s not that I am afraid, because I am not. I just believe there is something that is placed inside each of us that gives us, innately, the strength to fight to live. The only time that strength flees is when drugs and/or alcohol drown the true pure spirit.

I believe this with all my heart, and still after so many trials in my life, I fight to live. In fighting, however, sometimes have to settle for barter with life.

Mama told me there are three things I can count on in life:

  1. God
  2. Her love
  3. Change

I find, after all these years of living, she was right on the money. Number three is the one that happens EVERYDAY, and OFTEN without ANY NOTICE!

So here are VALID reasons not even to entertain that thought in my mind (or perhaps YOURS)!

  1. HOPE – I still have a feeling of expectation Perhaps something will change tomorrow. Could be ANYTHING – new cure, a visit from a long-lost friend, winning the lottery, having the best steak I’ve ever eaten, the best sex ever, a television show that is so fun I can’t stop laughing for a day! I would never know if I killed myself. If any of these things could have come to fruition.
  2. Once the deed was done there would never be another full moon to see, a bird to listen to, a book to read, a sky full of stars to gaze at, a beloved animal to pet and love, a child to sit on my lap for a visit in the spring, summer, winter, or fall,. I would miss it all, and that isn’t even the tip of the iceberg, as the saying goes.
  3. I am selfish. I love spending time with my husband, family and/or friends. I love my time alone to regenerate and think and write. I love to find a great bargain at a yard sale. I love to cook. I love taking photographs of people and places. I anticipate perhaps just hope, I will be able to travel to new places sometime. I guess I still like many things that life offers me.
  4. My “legacy” (don’t know if anyone would care besides my family) would be a lie. All the years I taught, and teach stress management and relaxation would be lies. I would have taken the “chicken” way out, and my whole life would have been for nothing.
  5. If there is a blazing hellfire, I do not want to be in it. I suffer when I get sunburned, and to me, fire is the scariest thing I know. I do not want to “burn, baby, burn”.

I think those five reasons add up to hundreds of personal reasons I cannot ever kill myself. Besides, I REFUSE to throw in the towel and let life stomp me out. I do not believe suicide is a natural thought.

I believe it has been placed in our minds by evil, whether it is from a movie, or a terrible murder-suicide, or a song. I also STRONGLY BELIEVE that ninety-nine percent of those who commit suicide either had mental issues, serious ones, or were plied with alcohol and/or drugs. Think about that one. Review the most recent “self destruction” you know about, and I bet there were drugs or alcohol involved, or severe mental illness.

Writing is a wonderful release, and you do not need to have a blog, or be perfect in English, to write your thoughts on paper.

Don’t give up! Besides, what if reincarnation is a fact and you had to come back as a maggot becaue you had killed yourself. Yuck.

Instead – begin again – CREATE your life, and I pray it is better as each moment passes!

I am praying for me too! God bless you and God help us all.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Who is Carl Atman?

June 13, 2014

Have you ever had a feeling that you have known a person before, or been to a place that you have never seen before?  Many of us have had those experiences….whether you believe in the possibility of reincarnation or not, this book will definitely hold your attention throughout!

I am a Christian, but I do not dismiss the fact that I am only finite, and do not know all the workings of God.  My faith is strong, but I read the book because I was told it was a love story – and I know and trust the author – I was not disappointed.

So whether you believe in reincarnation, or have different beliefs, or don’t believe in anything at all, this story will hold your attention, chapter to chapter.  It is worth a read, and perhaps it will answer the question for you: Do you believe in reincarnation of not?

Whatever reason you get the book, plan on getting involved and dismiss your stress for a time!  Rest and Regeneration – it is GREAT for all of us!

I actually am old school about some things.   I got the book to take with me to read while sitting under a big old tree.  It was VERY relaxing.  I actually put in a bookmark and closed my eyes for a few.

Enjoy your weekend and insist on some good old fashioned R&R – You are worth it!

Carl use

 

Authored by Morris Walker 
Illustrated by Skye Walker 

Each soul’s journey through life on planet earth is an ultimate adventure.

 

Morris says he was compelled to write this book. He was certain many people would enjoy the adventures in time.  It is a journey for many recalling times in their lives they were stirred by an old feeling, or a memory of knowing a place or person, some time in their “past”.

 

THE LIVES OF CARL ATMAN will stir those feelings from within and perhaps bring to mind a love story over the eons of time that manifests in your memory.

 

The greater picture of the billions of lives and these stories are a cosmic phenomenon we can never comprehend in this life. But along with our God-given intuition and creative power, we can imagine. And in all our lives, we learn at one point or another that there is inner guidance available for us if we merely tune in.

 

Reincarnation.  Fact?  Or is this just a wonderful love story that spans centuries? You will know for yourself once you read:

 

The Lives of Carl Atman 

Authored by Morris Walker 
Illustrated by Skye Walker


”My hope above all else, I hope that you enjoy the journey.”

            Morris Walker

Now available:  Go to www.amazon.com and buy it in paperback and or kindle for $3.99

or

Blackstone Audio Books also has the audio version in CD and also under www.download.com