Archive for the ‘surgery’ Category

A Gift to You from God

September 9, 2013

A Gift to You from God

A doggone shame! :)

July 12, 2013

I tried for over an hour to post some of the cutest photos of my dog I was sure you would enjoy!  After finishing everything and posting, the post came up with no photos!

I tried it over and over again – to no avail.  So….instead of being upset or stressed out, I will just figure it’s not the time to post them, and I will leave the computer for a while and do something else.  I will not be stressed out by ANYTHING, particularly something that is supposed to be fun!  I hope you find the same format in your handling of “life”.

Makes it a damn sight easier!  Have a beautiful weekend and never waste a moment on misery.  We only have this moment.

This is a photo of me with my “gear” since my surgery.  It is a “temporary” situation because I plan to heal.  I am working on it every day now, and I am able to step a couple of steps without the walker.  Progress – slow and steady.

God bless you all.  Remember, no wasting moments!

the new me

Photo on 2013-07-01 at 15.42

Don’t be sad for me.  I am a woman on a mission of healing.  You can pray for my healing if you like…but

I am a happy puppy!

Cough it up! Let’s See a Smile

May 28, 2013

Hey, if I can do it, you can.  Been out and about for a month (emergency room, hospitals, etc.)so I haven’t been writing regularly.  Hope to do so now.  Since I have to learn to walk all over again, I think I may have time to plunk the keys of the computer a bit more regularly.

I hope you all are remembering that there is no guarantee in life.  Just when you think everything is perfect (or a big mess) – everything changes.  Be grateful for all the big and little moments that are wonderful!  Evaluate what is really worth getting upset, fearful or angry about, and then toss them in the trash can – mostly!  CHOOSE happiness.  I am going to even though my wonderful little life has turned totally upside down.  I get to create a new life.

I also am not just forgetting that my disabilities right now affect others too – my husband, my family, etc.  I will forge ahead and work to create this new life into a positive and loving one.

Hug someone right now.  Jump up and down for me.  I will think of you all and prayers will be coming your way.  If you would say a prayer or two for me, I will feel it, and thank you now.

God bless you and all your loved ones and families and friends!  More soon.


May 26, 2013

If you’ve NEVER been a “people person”, NOW would be a good time to try to get in the habit of at least being amiable with other fellow human beings.

There may come a time, and I certainly hope not, that you will be totally in the hands of others – and mostly strangers.  My time is now.

I had two unexpected severe spinal cord emergency surgeries and a 20% collapsed lung.

I was in ICU for two days, the hospital for several more, and I have been in the rehab hospital for almost two weeks now.

It’s been quite an education and an ongoing one at that. I learned that sometimes when you are going “under” with drugs – you might say things you never would otherwise. I did.  Those failed people skills are not good – but acceptable.

As a child, I was taught to respect others and to say thank you and please.  Sometimes I think those skills are almost forgotten today.

Yes, I am naturally a people person, and yes, I can handle quite a bit of pain before coming unglued.  One thing I knew instinctively when I first awoke from the surgeries is that my problems are NOT the fault of those serving me- such as RN’s LVN’s and CPA’s.

When you are in pain the most important thing you can do is to BREATHE! It will help you relax, and allow your emotions not to be entangled with your intellect.


Also remember, as this is important, no matter how much misery you feel, BE WISE, do not be nasty to the folks who are caring for you.

  1. They did not put you in the hospital or at the doctor’s office.
  2. They are in charge of your moment-by-moment care.  Though I have found ninety-nine percent of those working in this hospital CARE, you might just bump into the one who will therein make your life a lot harder than it should be.
  3. If you have to “wait” for your pain pills, or have to hold your pee longer than you think you can, it does NO good to yell at the people who are there to help you.  They are humans who have to sometimes do and see terrible things.  Be as kind as you can – even if you cuss inside and have to pretend temporarily!

4. Remember the saying “ as you give, so shall you receive.”

People in these fields can be ANGELS of Mercy – Be grateful they are there to do the jobs you need done.

So start right away to exercise your ability to change your perspective a bit.

You don’t have to turn into a different person – just hone your skills!  I hope you never have to have any emergency ANYTHING!  Blessings and love to you and your family.

In Praise of God and my Husband

May 19, 2013


I will always praise God for all the days of my life.  I can never be humble enough, thankful enough, or even be able to say how much I love Him.

When Michael, my husband, pushed my wheelchair back to my hospital room today, I began to think of the suffering he has endured since my emergency fiasco.  He was with me from the beginning and has been with me as much as possible to this day.

When I thought my schedule was grueling, I began to think of Michael’s since the day I was admitted to the hospital.  He is a heavy equipment mechanic and shop boss for a local company.  He saw me in horrific pain and was unable to take it away.  He told me he broke down once, and he rarely does that.

His work is backbreaking and diverse.  He awakes at 5AM and lets the dog out and then washes his face, shaves, etc.  When the dog has done her business he prepares her food and gets that task done.

Before he can leave he gathers all the items I have asked him to bring to me in the evening.  He also usually has a load of cleanly washed clothes to fetch and fold.

The job is ten miles from home.  Michael’s talents are not simply heavy equipment repair, but a myriad of other “body taxing” jobs throughout the day.  The day is usually twelve hours, give or take a few minutes.

Of course he has already called at noon to check in on me and see how I am doing for the day.  After work he drives the ten miles and then another five or six miles to the hospital.

I light up when he comes in the door and though I tell him “Don’t come over tonight”, he knows it is the highlight of my day.  He usually brings thoughtful and useful things to keep my spirit up.  Whatever I ask him to bring he also packs and delivers the items.

As the weekdays pass Michael begins to look exhausted.  I can tell the days his back is just killing him.  But still he comes every night, faithfully.

He stays until I have to say, “Go home honey.  You still have to take care of the dog, shower, and get ready for tomorrow. “ He’s been grabbing junk food every night since this happened. It’s usually cold by the time he eats it.

On the weekends he does all the household chores, manicures the lawns and trims the trees.  He does much more.

Today he brought “normalcy” to my seemingly endless hospital routines.

He pushed me in the wheelchair to a small refuge called “Angel’s Camp”.

The small park is big enough for one picnic table and two benches.  It

Is surrounded by green trees and bushes – tall and small.  It has a creek

still running hard from recent rains.

He also brought my dog and let me visit with her.  She’s my baby and I loved seeing her.  In a picnic box he brought water, pop, oranges, dog treats (so I could feed her), and fresh strawberries all ready to eat.

My family was on an outing and the dismal feelings I had last night dissipated into oblivion.  My dog knows I am injured.  She was polite and loving and laid next to me for a time.  When it was time to leave, just before he was going to put her in the car, she ran over for a last love and buried her face on my legs while I pet her again.

I told Michael he didn’t have to come by tonight as this had been wonderful.

He said, “I love you.  I’ll see you tonight, and remember-whatever the results of this hard time it is our lives now and we will make it together.”

I can never praise him enough for his steadfast love for me.  He’s seen me in

the most dire of circumstances, and hasn’t blinked an eye.  “I love your heart and your mind” he’ll remind me, “and those things never change.”



May 18, 2013

Never think of a day as mundane. Please never say you are “killing time”.

Lastly remember that just when you think things will never change,

changes will come and turn your life around.  You can be sure in this lifetime CHANGE is inevitable.

It has been several weeks since I have written consistently, and for those of you who follow my blog, you know I had a fall in January and have been treated for a compression fracture in L1 (Lumbar part of the spinal cord).

Because of a staggering number of unprofessional medical doctors and careless follow-up and  treatments, I paid the price…I started with a 15% compression fracture that could have been treated with vertebroplasty, and left me pain free within hours of the surgery.

Instead I have just had two emergency major surgeries on my back.  The compression fracture ended up being 70%.  My doctor had released me, no more brace and said to call if I needed him.

To make a long story short, I was rushed by ambulance to have first a

Laminectomy, and then an emergency surgery on a burst compression fracture, a type of traumatic spinal injury.

You can go to youtube and look up Tll-L3 Fusion with Instrumentation and should come up with the exact surgery (one of them) I had.

I don’t know how it will all work out, but all the things I thanked God for are still the same (except me!), so I am still grateful and motivated to try to take each day as it comes.

My feet are totally numb.  I have quite a bit of pain, and I have to learn to walk again as my left foot is very weak, and so much is going on because of the surgeries.

I found a video that shows exactly what I had to have done, except it’s not me, it’s a man.  It’s been quite an eye-opener. Have never posted a video and don’t know how to do it – and honestly  am not up to exploring how to do it tonight.

Two days in intensive care, several more in the hospital, and now about two weeks in a rehab hospital; with at least several more weeks to go.

So please everyone – let the petty things dissipate and pay attention to loving one another.  Enjoy the use of your legs to walk, and the freedom to sit in

the shade and watch the shimmering leaves on a tree dance in the breeze.

God bless you and I hope and pray nothing like this ever happens to you!

But if it does, keep the faith, say your prayers, ACCEPT what you cannot change, and change what you can by working hard to recover and redesign your life accordingly.  J