Posts Tagged ‘God’

A New Day

October 15, 2017

I hope you enjoyed my little pity party last night.  I normally “choose” happiness.  I think it was in part because the weekends when Mike is gone are the hardest -particularly Saturday night…go figure!  It was Saturday… Last evening I felt exhausted, my poor little tootsies were hurting, right along with my ankles, and so instead of choosing to get into one of my good books, I made the mistake of watching a movie Mike had recorded…I realized it was not the movie I should have been watching. I find no joy in watching a movie unless it leaves me feeling good.  That is because we have so many terrible things going on around us…for relaxation – I choose something that actually makes me laugh or feel happy.

That is part of the problem (I believe) with young adults and children.  They are “fed” all these TERRIBLE SCENARIOS in movies and on the internet. hollyweird is warping all their minds, right along with the horrible lyrics put into some music.  Unbelievable.  That’s a whole different subject.

Today is a beautiful day.  A day to begin again and have the opportunity to love and live and be grateful for all the small miracles many of us are so fortunate to have in our lives.

Therein I am going to drop to my knee, say a prayer of gratitude, and also pray for all those whose needs are so much right now…those in line of fires, hurricanes, flooding, earthquakes, and basic needs we all require to live.

Have a GOOD day and if you started off with a pity party, as I did yesterday – remember it is okay to be human…but make it a short party and then choose happiness!

As ye think, so shall ye become..”

October 15, 2017

A quiet disaster.

Is anyone there?

Have I always been the only one to long to see people?

I remember being the hostess. The “stop to rest” on the long road to somewhere else to visit someone else.

Does no one long for my kind disposition and my hilarious outlook on most of life. Does not my happiness and healing light bring anyone to reckon that they “need” to spend time with me?

Except, of course, strangers who cross my path and often say, “You are an angel”, I needed a dose of you”, “You are so wonderful.” I am glad for my life to has made a difference in the lives of some that we just touch hands as we pass. God put me here and there, and I am small in the perspective of God, but touching a heart touches my heart. Sincerely. I hope the Creator knows – I would love to meet Jesus – but when I am anything fine and wonderful, it is because I was created in His image. Imagine!

I have always made the effort and taken the time to nurture and love all those given to me to share life with, and those souls who’s lives are given to me for only a moment in time…

What have I done to feel so unloved? I think it is only me in the moment.

Does time steal not only health and youth, but does it keep dwindling us physically and mentally and within until that sweet day of demise? Why, I do believe it does.

It is all coming to fruition though I think I am still in the best of my mind. If I am honest, I often hear people say (and why wouldn’t you be?) – I may not be in the PRIME of my life, the PRIME of my health in this body, the PRIME of my wits…but TO ME…I AM. Still alive, still vibrant, I still feel beautiful (though I never thought I was really).

I learned today I can make a volcano with soda, vinegar and a large candle…that joy in learning this comes from the joy within – still vibrant and wild and young.

I went to see ROCKS today. “Rocks and gems”. The thing I love about rocks is they can be so terribly ugly outside, and filled with sparkly, lovely, light crystals! They can be spun round and be as smooth as anything you’ve ever felt, and still lovely – filled with light and color.

I keep thinking, “How can anyone think of the billions of rocks, all unique, and not believe in a creator? I just don’t understand. Perhaps that is where the saying comes into light; “Be still, and know that I am God.”

And I did. And I do.

God Morning!

October 6, 2017

It felt good to “speak my peace”. It is still an open venue to voice an opinion, at least for the time being.
As I sit here feeling the blessed cooler air and hearing the soft ring of chimes that move with the wind, I want to say, “God Morning”…I want it to be a God filled morning and day.
In writing I released what I know to be a mutual opinion, standing with many millions of people who have little voice in what is happening today. We are the peasants. I say that with no sorrow or anger, it is just the way it is – and I am a happy one! Happy beyond belief the majority of my life. It is a blessing to still be able to recognize the beauty of the earth we live upon, and the magnificence of the stars in the sky above.
I am an American. I love the essence of America, the lands, the individual peoples who live in the different areas, and the diversity of our people. The thing I feel about America that is different than any other country in the world is that for all my life, I have seen, when time is of the essence, ALL AMERICANS JOIN HANDS together, pray together, and work together for the good of America! There has been no division or devise plans when diligence and teamwork are needed to keep America free, and its people melding together for strength, healing and peace.
It has been that way ALL my life, and I want it to remain the same.
The only thing that has changed is the media driven panic and pressing onto any story that will ultimately make money! If we were NOT infringed upon by the madness of the media, we wouldwe would NOT come unhinged when faces of the FEW discontent citizens make a statement, albeit at the wrong time and place, whilst there are millions upon millions who are working side by side, living side by side, and trying to make amends for those mistakes ALL human beings make at one time or another.

Anger begets anger, violence begets violence, and love and peace…..begets love and peace.

If people want to change things then it will begin in the individual core of each person’s spirit.
DO NOT watch or read or listen to the inflammatory things the media presents each moment of the day. I challenge you to go just four days (and nights) without paying attention to the rhetoric presented us that creates discontent, worry, negativity or anger from within us.

If you pray, drop to your knee and humbly ask our Great Spirit (the proper name, if you read the Bible, is Jehovah) – to let the Holy Spirit fill us with love and graciousness. Ask for kindness and humility, and live your moments the best you can in the next four days, breathing and moving in love and peace.

I will offer you a “MONEY BACK GUARANTEE” (oh wait, I don’t get paid – haha) – that in these four days, if you meet the challenge, you will find an amazing four days upon you! The only other thing I suggest is that when you feel ANY negative feelings or worry, take a breath and say to yourself, “NOPE. Not going to wreck my peace and happiness….it will all work out some way!” Then exhale the negative thoughts into oblivion and begin again.

People always want to know why I am so happy…..well, beyond teaching stress management and relaxation techniques, I actually use them! God has given us soooooooo many gifts from within if we just use them! Breathing exceptionally good breaths will also create natural pain killers from within. The TRICK is…….like any habit we get into…..you must believe they will work.

Don’t forget – “money back guarantee!” SMILE just because it will make you feel better. Do not worry, if there is any dire emergency, it will find its way to you – don’t look – LIVE! I love you all! My husband asks how I can love people I don’t know? Easy – we are all brothers and sisters and members of the human family. We all cry, bleed, laugh, and some of us even laugh until our gut hurts! Just sayin’……….

(no I didn’t proof, so fire me! Lord I feel silly today!)

America is still a wonderful place to live.

October 5, 2017

I am really irritated. For you football players that “bend” a knee, GO SOMEPLACE ELSE AND TRY TO EARN THE MONEY YOU MAKE IN THE USA! ALSO, IF YOU THINK WE ARE RACIST – GO SOMEPLACE ELSE – BECAUSE every human being on the planet has his or her prejudices! GOODBYE!
This thing has got me going…These spoiled athletes, who “protest” to make a difference, aren’t! All they are doing is dividing people and causing conflicts.
I won’t apologize or say, “everyone has a right to their opinion! Those who have exposure and liberal media behind them, have more than the rights of the individual peasants who really own and reside and pay taxes and live and honor and love America!!!
I am sick of people making pathetic excuses to be weak and not stand up for what they believe. Humans ALL OVER THE WORLD would give everything they own to have the opportunity afforded them in the USA…prejudice? I am white, a woman, my son says I am attractive, and I lived in a moderately financed home when I was small. My mom and dad paid $5,000. for their home…therefore I am BLAMED for the racial prejudice and horrible things going on today. Neither here nor there. I am not to blame! I had no choice how I was born, how I look, my brains, my position in life, the whole ball of wax- draw of the cards!
These athletes, who are probably too young and too rich to remember World War II or even the Koran War or Vietnam, do not get it! PROTEST you MF’ers (Malfunctioning , Flawed humans) – and stay BLIND! If you want to drop on your knee, you had better be doing it in honor of the greatest Spirit of all, who created us!
FOR ME, to stand with hand on heart during the National Anthem means I honor all those who have suffered and died, and those who have lived with horrible disabilities…to keep us free! I honor their sacrifices and the sacrifices their families made, and still make! Our National Anthem is a symbol of our country, and the flag- another symbol of this great country we live in…of the blood shed to keep us free!
Athletes kneeling to protest brutality and inequality? The only thing they do is cause more difficulty, and more separating of people. Look up TRUE facts and you will find more people of color KILL their own than police! Yes the brutality to blacks by police officers can be harsh, but it is laid upon suspects and criminals by officers that are black too! AND, oftentimes the brutality BEGINS with those suspects and criminals fighting the police first! WHAT WOULD YOU DO??
Oprah is one of the richest women in the world, a man who is proud to be black (though that is each person’s opinion) was president, black athletes are multi-millionaires, black actors are millionaires – so wherein is all the inequality? Poverty is the culprit, and there are very poor white people in this country too!
AS FAR AS THE CLASPING OF ARMS – my personal opinion, “throw-up, gag, vomit.” Purely BS (Brilliant Strategy ) by, I am sure, managers who encouraged players to show “Unity” even if they don’t drop to their knee. Well, DUH, they have to show unity to keep people buying tickets, and to keep misleading the meaning of what their are doing.
SHOW UNITY TO YOUR PROVIDERS:
Drop to your knee to praise God! People are born with physical attributes, so don’t take too much credit for natural skills your were born with-be grateful.
Unify as citizens of the greatest country in the world by standing with your hand on your heart facing the flag “ White signifies purity and innocence. Red, hardiness & valour, and Blue… signifies vigilance, perseverance & justice.”. The stars represent the “union” of the states. Added to the description in 1977: “The star is a symbol of the heavens and the divine goal to which man has aspired from time immemorial, and the stripe symbolic of the rays of light emanating from the sun.”….
Sing our National Anthem! “ An anthem is “A patriotic musical composition that evokes and eulogizes the history, traditions, and struggles of its people, recognized either by a nation’s government as the official national song, or by convention through use by the people.”
I admit it is difficult to sing and the range is beyond me, but at least I will stand with my hand over my heart and try!

Good Morning!

August 22, 2017

GOOD MORNING! Good morning my brothers and sisters. To be writing and to be reading means we are alive and I say thank you Great Spirit, Creator beyond our understanding and comprehension……thank you! Counselor who never tires of hearing my prayers, and never leaves me.

You have given us heart and the ability to smile. You have given human beings the instant spark to be strong and open to helping others when the need is great.

You have given us strength of mind and body when tragedy comes upon us, to rise and to move onward and upward.

You are the song in my heart and the backbone in this tenacious and weary body. You have given me the power to move beyond my own ability and the drive to go on…

The mysteries of the skies and beauty of the wispy clouds that run across the warm of the sun, but for a moment, are wonders to behold.

You have given us an appetite to learn more about everything we see and touch.
Often I have given less than I was able because sometimes I am only human, and forget that I have you within me, to brighten my outlook and stretch beyond my limits.

You have given me faith. From whence it comes I know not, but like the ocean breeze it cools and wets my face awakening this beating heart to begin again.

With the light of the day my mind begins to challenge me to get up and move and make this fine instrument once again, regardless of the pressing in of life, open my arms and lift them to praise you for so many miracles that happen each moment, many of which we simply do not take the time or energy to recognize.

Like an old friend, I trust you to elevate my thoughts, strength my mind, bring peace and happiness from within and let it burst into fruition to add to life for me and those in my circle of life.

Thank you oh Great Spirit of forgiveness, patience, and love. Thank you for knowing I cannot understand it all. For that which does not come to me clearly – please forgive me. I will try again to make you happy in my creation, after all is said and done.

I was given so much, and all you ask is that I have faith and love.

My blessed Creator, you are the grandest of all, and yet I am free to address you and love you. Mysterious and amazing.

Lovingly, your humble servant,
Marsha

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Pain

August 4, 2017

What happens when the pain is so bad that suddenly you think for a moment “I can’t can’t handle this. The pain is too much!”

Everyone says – “You can handle it – learn to deal with the hand you’ve been dealt. We all have to deal with pain…that’s life!”

Well……..those words are entirely true, but what I say today is “Phewy! Aarrghh! Crappola!
PLEASE don’t preach to the choir! Leave that to God.

We all do have to deal with pain and it sucks. What particularly sucks is that no one else on the planet, even if they have practically the same injury or problem, can understand your pain!
No one can jump right into your shoes, though many really kind and good hearted people (who have possibly dealt with lots of pain in his or her life) may sincerely try. It just isn’t happening.

It is YOUR pain, and yours alone. I can’t even describe the pain that almost left me unable to put any weight on my right ankle this afternoon. It didn’t last a lengthy time, like the pain that has become my constant companion from by back exploding. I guess you could say I am used to that pain. It varies in intensity, but shows up regularly each day, sometime after I put weight on my little frame of bones.

I tell you, God made the human body so strong and resilient that it never ceases to amaze me. During a lifetime I have participated in, or seen an ocean of pain from multiple sources….and yet people have healed, as best is possible with time and a bit of concentrated work.

Of course when you break that rare crystal bowl that sat on the table, even though you fixed it professionally…it will always have a weakness. It may look fine sitting on the table, but perhaps with time someone will put too much weight on it, or be careless handling it, and the bowl could succumb to that one incident of tragedy, then it hit the floor!

The human body is much stronger than the bowl. When I was in my twenties it seemed as if I challenged the endurance and healing power of the body, mind and spirit – simultaneously! I think that is still known as “partying”. Thank you God for your grace and in your undeserved mercy… I survived “myself”!

I sit down to write just a paragraph or two and it always winds up to be something I could just keep doing on. I love to write – I actually love to share life in this way….experiences I’ve had, thoughts I have, experiences of others, and those moments that make life worth “going beyond the pain!….back to the point of this post.

What was the point? Something about pain………hahahaha! The number one way to handle pain is DIVERSON, and that is exactly what I did! It works! (I really hope you don’t have too much pain to handle. I know it sucks. But it is “do-able”.). I send love and healing vibrations- and I am not just saying that! Ask my husband. He says “How can you care about people your don’t even know?” Well, that is easy! I am human, aren’t you? We are all REALLY connected in that way. Besides, Jesus said to love one another, and I love Jesus! Makes sense, eh?

Hug yourself. I just hugged myself and I needed it! You deserve a good hug!

This is a post that hasn’t been checked for errors and is 100% spontaneous. I hope it was worthy of a read. At least it was free!

Thank you!

July 7, 2017

Photograph taken in Corvallis Oregon.  Added just for a reminder that there is still beauty all around us!

fullsizeoutput_5aI am nothing without love, and nothing without my faith of the Unseen Spiritual Power and Creator of it all. His presence is within me, flooding me with a will to live and the power to carry on, no matter what the future appears to be.

He holds me up, pushes me along, and gives me the encouragement to keep trying. I see Jesus struggling along the path, having done nothing but love and enlighten, being tortured as he marched to His grisly end on the planet, for a time.

His time with His creations should have been filled with intense love and trust. That baby boy, to grow to be a man, was filled with curiosity and kindness. He did no wrong to anyone. His faith in His Father was unshaken, and yet He was tortured and ridiculed for never denying his heritage and position as the leader of love and forgiveness.

My time is limited. Just when I feel I am not qualified to even accept the Grace offered as a full bounty, I am reminded by someone I love that I am His child still.

I must move WITH grace, having been given this gift freely. I must accept that because He stills sings in my heart, without me ever touching Him, He touches me, and still moves me to tears because of the thought of His love for me..for all His creations. I must accept that no matter what, He wants me with him forever…and you.

All my flaws, all my insecurities, all the times of strife I let this world almost get the better of me. He has never left my heart and my mind. He stands steadfast with me amidst the horrors of the world and will always be my shield and source.

I am ever grateful for His subtle and enduring love that moves me back to Him again with just mere words. I am forever of His mind and Love, and forgive, even myself, for my sometimes awkward and inept words and ways. For those times I let evil grasp me and fool me.

Once again I am empowered and able to move with grace and beauty. I simply awoke and I am transformed again. Create a beautiful day. Fill it with love and forgiveness. Each moment we are able to forgive and begin again!

We should all love one another, even if just in an act of kindness. Smile for no reason. See the beauty of each individual. Take a breath and believe YOU are able to change your world, and the worlds of those who are a part of you life…even if you simply pass by in the market. You are in charge. Use the innate power that fills the space in your heart saved only for God and Godly things. For heavens sake, and the sake our being – hug someone! I love you.

Marsha

How to Start a Fine Day

May 26, 2017

It’s easy.  Just pray!

“Good morning sweet Lord. You let me be a living soul just another day! Thank you.”
“I will try to be loving, forgiving and kind. I will smile, which will open my heart.”
“I will endeavor not to be judgmental, yet keep the laws you require.
You give me all the tools I need to keep my body healthy, and
My heart seeking your higher ways.”

“Forgive me, my Lord, for lost days, weakness and poor choices.
For excuses I made to enable me to walk the tight rope
between heaven and hell…Still your forgive me, most simply, because I believe in your Son.”

“I am excited now to see how I can make you glad you love me today .
I want you to be at ease with with your choice to make me your child.
With your loving rules and guidelines fresh in my mind, I will take a breath now,
And leave the world yesterday behind.””

Though I cannot comprehend the vastness and forever or you,
I am made in your image, and I know, the Spirit will help me get through.
Two requests I ask from deep within, forgive me not knowing it all, and not fully being able to comprehend the complexity of you and your Son.”

“I do read your Book, and study the Word. Somethings are easy,
and others still go beyond the ability of me to fully grasp the truths of this Book.”
“I will not give up, I will not give in – I will continue to seek your charity
(another word for love) – I will drop to my knees in gratitude, and raise my arms above, in praise.”

“Humbly I ask for those I love to open their eyes
For those that have a heart for you to quit listening to “their” lies.
Your children abound, even those who are yet to discover the peace and the life you offer to all.”

“Please kindly nudge them, before the great fall.
Humbly I thank thee, humbly I arise.
With the ultimate sacrifice of your precious Son in my mind,
with tears in my eyes – I now stand tall.”

“With your Spirit to guide me, and your power all around me – My heart implodes with fullness.
The place you give us all, reserved just for you and your Son – is my true heart. I have already won! I will smile. I will love. I will bounce with the true joy of YOU!
I will pass it forward, that is just what I will do.”

“I love you sweet Lord. I think of you all the time throughout the day. I will hold my tongue, love hard, and be on my way.!

“Amen. (So be it).”

A simple dream

May 24, 2017

Another dream, another night. The first dream was simple and clear. Cooking breakfast, kissing my loved ones good by for the day – knowing we all go our separate way.

In my second dream I was not able to put my foot on the brake while my car was in drive. Forward it went as I struggled to reach the brake. I hadn’t been moving so the thud was small and the jeep was barely hit – but enough to move the other sitting.

“I am not simpatico with the car I drive right now,” I thought…it was a worry. All the bells and whistles. Safety factors I love, but all I want to do is turn the music up loud and drive as fast as I can on a straightaway. Thelma and Louise came to mind.

Before I got in I had tied 3 sets of keys into a large red scarf. A strong gust of wind picked it up, lifting it out of my palm I watched while it became a red kite, flying now almost too high to see. It flew until out of sight and I assumed dropped a few blocks away.

As I stood there I realized, there was nothing I could do! I sat down and thought, “I need to go get busy. I will divert my own attention from this problem and perhaps it will resolve on its own. I will trust God.”

It was a strange dream, as if I were awake and really thinking these things.
The dream was over. I opened my eyes.

Why would I bother to write this down? I have no clue.

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Here it is ten days later than when that dream manifested to paper. I re-read it and one paragraph hit me right between the eyes! I awoke this morning facing a problem that is a conundrum (a confusing and difficult problem to resolve.). I was just mulling over in my brain ANY possible resolve to the problem..thus far, I find none!

Then by chance I saw this in a folder with some writing I am doing, and found my answer! Here is the paragraph:

As I stood there I realized, there was nothing I could do! I sat down and thought, “I need to go get busy. I will divert my own attention from this problem and perhaps it will resolve on its own. I will trust God.”

Conundrum resolved for the time. Got to get up and get busy! CREATE a wonderful day full of moments to cherish!

Begin Again for the Last Time

April 25, 2017

Being human includes having all the flaws, pain, and trials one can endure. Those first two humans, in my realm of beliefs,  wanted to know all about the things that make God, God. They wanted to taste of evil and that old snake satan was right there as he is now – prodding and pushing.

I am in the most weakened state of my life now  You can see some scars physically, and are aware of changes mentally.  I believed when I awoke this morning, something may have finally severed any real dreams, or chances of dreams I still had.  Memories besmeared, future questionable, and heart nearly broken in half.  Life has put me in a pit again.

No one can possibly know what disabilities I deal wit, that manifest each day as I awake and wonder if I want to get out of bed at all, or go back to sleep, “perchance to dream”.

I won’t tell anyone the extent of my injuries.  It would be impossible to explain anyway.  They didn’t just begin with my back bursting. Life managed to seep into my thoughts and like a baby near the edge of a high staircase, someone let go of my hand when I was just a young woman and I fell down the stairs, hitting my head and scraping my arms and legs. I knew I was hurt but the baby just kept crawling up the stairs to see what was at the top. Again and again my immaturity, or selfishness, or fear of overwhelming pain physically and mentally again, tossed me down the stairs….sometimes in the air all the way to the bottom, and sometimes hitting each step squarely – and hard!  Somehow I always managed to pull myself together and begin to crawl upward again!

I saw so many humans falling and as I grew I tried to push and pull, and help them back up the stairs. My heart grew weary, but I was tenacious – broken bones, swollen limbs and mental exhaustion never stopped me.  Hesitation and fear – yes!  Desire to feel the wonder of life again manifest through “events” seemed to keep me trying….

The God Unknown, knew my name. He kept calling, yet I kept falling….prey to a mis-step of a different kind each time.

Life’s temptations masqueraded into glorious apparitions. The snake lay in wait for a moment of weakness, and I found myself tumbling down the stairs again and again. Though my life was going by me so fast my vision was blurred, I kept on it. I kept crawling up the stairs, which now wound round and round, and increased in numbers and difficulty. I wanted to get to the top.

I could hear a sweet voice that beckoned my heart and I pushed upward, amidst a crowded group of people – some trying with me, and others running the other way. Confusion struck hearts like bolts of lightening. I watched with horror as some fell from above me and turning my head I saw I could do nothing to help as I watched them falling far beyond my vision, and still falling as I lost sight of them. I could barely help myself.

Still I turned and began the climb once more. It was almost more than I could endure, and the solitude I had known was replaced with a shrieking and loud voices above and below me. I turned and sat as the stairs had grown much larger now, and I found just enough space to sit and bend my elbows so I could put my head down and cry. I weeped, I wailed, the wet tears
drenched my clothes and I tried to wipe them with my arms so no one would slip on the now, almost vertical stairs…so small my foot needed to turn sideways to fit.

I prayed. I couldn’t move from my exhaustion and delusions bursting in my head. What I had known-wasn’t. What I had believed was in part lies- so many lies that fooled me. So many falls because I had blinded myself to run away from all the pain. I thought it was the end of me. I thought this was my eternity. Climbing, forever climbing.

I sat. It was as if I was a baby again and I was alone on the stairs. I felt a large hand from above grasp my shoulder. I turned and the hand clasp mine and began to gently pull me to the next stair going upward.

I was a blend of thoughts and visions, experiences and horrors…..beauty and hope. I could see
the top of the stairs just a few steps away now. The voice at the top spoke to me, saying “I’ve done what I can throughout the years. I chose to silently be the push you needed throughout your life, and sometimes the pull. I haven’t given up on you, but these last steps are steps that you must take alone. I will be there but It is time. I will be waiting”

“ I expect to see you when the time comes for you to arrive. In the meanwhile, feel free to speak to me, I hope in gratitude for my company all these years, but the power with which you will take these steps, though few, will be the most difficult of all. Do not expect it otherwise.”

“Do not be befuddled with illusive worry about everything. All those things will work for the best-in my time. I know many who have yet to know me. Trust me. Those who have brushed next to you, those who have been a part of you, those who know Love, know me, and those Spirits are a kin and will be just fine. Trust me, I say again. Keep endeavoring to reach the top; they will be there in my time. I expect to see you. I expect no less.”