Posts Tagged ‘personal’

Are you a boy? A girl? or a third gender… a “non-binary gender”?

October 24, 2017

We have been “primed” to be tolerant towards those holding “other opinions” regarding personal makeup as a human. “Don’t be a bigot”.

We have been forced to accept that which goes against our own personal beliefs, in the name of understanding. For instance the plight of all homeless and former prisoners. “Its not their faults. They need help.”

If we hesitate to accept the things pushing us together for a different agenda, we are guilted, blamed, punished, condemned and told we think we are better than others!

The governor of California has gone too far this time…at least for me. I try to listen and be open to the stories of those who are lesbian, gay, and transgender. Though I know (I have done the homework) that the percentage of lesbian, gay, and transgender people is minuscule in comparison with the entire population of citizens of the USA….Just a tad over 3.5 % (11,270,000 )in a population of 322 million people! … That leaves 310,999.730 people who are supposed to accommodate the demands of that 3.5%. Really?

Are the rest of us to set aside our time, energy and beliefs to accommodate this? All right, let’s say we try to mind our own business and “accept” the rights of other humans. Fine. But personally, when an owner of a bakery refuses to decorate a wedding cake for two men who are marrying, should he / or she should not be reprimanded? What happened to the business owners rights? What about “I have the right to refuse the use of my business to anyone I choose!” Do not the 332 million people who are sited as “normal” not have any rights any more?

The icing on the cake, so to speak, governor brown, of california, has gone too far this time for me. Along with two liberal senators, one from San Diego, and one from San Francisco (the freak capital of california, he just put through a law stating it is okay now if “someone who does not know if they are man or woman, to put that on a drivers license, or identification- as a non-binary gender.

In otherwords they have “created” a “third gender”. Who in the hell do these people think they are? gods?

There are a VERY RARE FEW cases who have been born with one too many, or one too little of the x or y chromosome. Meaning they TRUly have a physical problem that will require attention in the lives of these people. These cases, let me repeat, are RARE!

They (those who are extreme liberal, rich and powerful) are bending the minds of all who listen and accept this. I call BS. All they are doing is creating total confusion in the minds of young adults, and really in the minds of children. Humans tend to form thoughts from what they see and hear. With media acceptance, and legal acceptance – why it must be true…we have a third gender. (God might have missed this in creating us!). I am appalled!

This is being taught in many pre-schools…if you don’t like being a girl you can be a boy. Acceptance is being taught in schools. The media, some very big liberals in politics, and hollyweird are promoting how this is okay….it’s NOT. Teachers and retail stores are being told no longer call students boys and girls -no longer have separate sections: Call them children. Have no division in children’s clothing.
NO NO NO.

Moonbeam was a piece of garbage his last “reign” – so was his father before him!.. Really? A third gender? I THINK NOT.

I will not accept a third gender as commonplace. I will not accept training our young people that they can change genders if they like…until 7 or 8 they really don’t understand all the concepts of their physical bodies.

The TRUTH is: Boys have balls and a penis. Girls have breasts and a vagina. I HAVE DONE MY HOMEWORK.  I have read percentages, reports of psychologists, all about genders, etc. etc. etc. The incidence of this happening as I wrote before, is RARE.

God help us all.

God Morning!

October 6, 2017

It felt good to “speak my peace”. It is still an open venue to voice an opinion, at least for the time being.
As I sit here feeling the blessed cooler air and hearing the soft ring of chimes that move with the wind, I want to say, “God Morning”…I want it to be a God filled morning and day.
In writing I released what I know to be a mutual opinion, standing with many millions of people who have little voice in what is happening today. We are the peasants. I say that with no sorrow or anger, it is just the way it is – and I am a happy one! Happy beyond belief the majority of my life. It is a blessing to still be able to recognize the beauty of the earth we live upon, and the magnificence of the stars in the sky above.
I am an American. I love the essence of America, the lands, the individual peoples who live in the different areas, and the diversity of our people. The thing I feel about America that is different than any other country in the world is that for all my life, I have seen, when time is of the essence, ALL AMERICANS JOIN HANDS together, pray together, and work together for the good of America! There has been no division or devise plans when diligence and teamwork are needed to keep America free, and its people melding together for strength, healing and peace.
It has been that way ALL my life, and I want it to remain the same.
The only thing that has changed is the media driven panic and pressing onto any story that will ultimately make money! If we were NOT infringed upon by the madness of the media, we wouldwe would NOT come unhinged when faces of the FEW discontent citizens make a statement, albeit at the wrong time and place, whilst there are millions upon millions who are working side by side, living side by side, and trying to make amends for those mistakes ALL human beings make at one time or another.

Anger begets anger, violence begets violence, and love and peace…..begets love and peace.

If people want to change things then it will begin in the individual core of each person’s spirit.
DO NOT watch or read or listen to the inflammatory things the media presents each moment of the day. I challenge you to go just four days (and nights) without paying attention to the rhetoric presented us that creates discontent, worry, negativity or anger from within us.

If you pray, drop to your knee and humbly ask our Great Spirit (the proper name, if you read the Bible, is Jehovah) – to let the Holy Spirit fill us with love and graciousness. Ask for kindness and humility, and live your moments the best you can in the next four days, breathing and moving in love and peace.

I will offer you a “MONEY BACK GUARANTEE” (oh wait, I don’t get paid – haha) – that in these four days, if you meet the challenge, you will find an amazing four days upon you! The only other thing I suggest is that when you feel ANY negative feelings or worry, take a breath and say to yourself, “NOPE. Not going to wreck my peace and happiness….it will all work out some way!” Then exhale the negative thoughts into oblivion and begin again.

People always want to know why I am so happy…..well, beyond teaching stress management and relaxation techniques, I actually use them! God has given us soooooooo many gifts from within if we just use them! Breathing exceptionally good breaths will also create natural pain killers from within. The TRICK is…….like any habit we get into…..you must believe they will work.

Don’t forget – “money back guarantee!” SMILE just because it will make you feel better. Do not worry, if there is any dire emergency, it will find its way to you – don’t look – LIVE! I love you all! My husband asks how I can love people I don’t know? Easy – we are all brothers and sisters and members of the human family. We all cry, bleed, laugh, and some of us even laugh until our gut hurts! Just sayin’……….

(no I didn’t proof, so fire me! Lord I feel silly today!)

America is still a wonderful place to live.

October 5, 2017

I am really irritated. For you football players that “bend” a knee, GO SOMEPLACE ELSE AND TRY TO EARN THE MONEY YOU MAKE IN THE USA! ALSO, IF YOU THINK WE ARE RACIST – GO SOMEPLACE ELSE – BECAUSE every human being on the planet has his or her prejudices! GOODBYE!
This thing has got me going…These spoiled athletes, who “protest” to make a difference, aren’t! All they are doing is dividing people and causing conflicts.
I won’t apologize or say, “everyone has a right to their opinion! Those who have exposure and liberal media behind them, have more than the rights of the individual peasants who really own and reside and pay taxes and live and honor and love America!!!
I am sick of people making pathetic excuses to be weak and not stand up for what they believe. Humans ALL OVER THE WORLD would give everything they own to have the opportunity afforded them in the USA…prejudice? I am white, a woman, my son says I am attractive, and I lived in a moderately financed home when I was small. My mom and dad paid $5,000. for their home…therefore I am BLAMED for the racial prejudice and horrible things going on today. Neither here nor there. I am not to blame! I had no choice how I was born, how I look, my brains, my position in life, the whole ball of wax- draw of the cards!
These athletes, who are probably too young and too rich to remember World War II or even the Koran War or Vietnam, do not get it! PROTEST you MF’ers (Malfunctioning , Flawed humans) – and stay BLIND! If you want to drop on your knee, you had better be doing it in honor of the greatest Spirit of all, who created us!
FOR ME, to stand with hand on heart during the National Anthem means I honor all those who have suffered and died, and those who have lived with horrible disabilities…to keep us free! I honor their sacrifices and the sacrifices their families made, and still make! Our National Anthem is a symbol of our country, and the flag- another symbol of this great country we live in…of the blood shed to keep us free!
Athletes kneeling to protest brutality and inequality? The only thing they do is cause more difficulty, and more separating of people. Look up TRUE facts and you will find more people of color KILL their own than police! Yes the brutality to blacks by police officers can be harsh, but it is laid upon suspects and criminals by officers that are black too! AND, oftentimes the brutality BEGINS with those suspects and criminals fighting the police first! WHAT WOULD YOU DO??
Oprah is one of the richest women in the world, a man who is proud to be black (though that is each person’s opinion) was president, black athletes are multi-millionaires, black actors are millionaires – so wherein is all the inequality? Poverty is the culprit, and there are very poor white people in this country too!
AS FAR AS THE CLASPING OF ARMS – my personal opinion, “throw-up, gag, vomit.” Purely BS (Brilliant Strategy ) by, I am sure, managers who encouraged players to show “Unity” even if they don’t drop to their knee. Well, DUH, they have to show unity to keep people buying tickets, and to keep misleading the meaning of what their are doing.
SHOW UNITY TO YOUR PROVIDERS:
Drop to your knee to praise God! People are born with physical attributes, so don’t take too much credit for natural skills your were born with-be grateful.
Unify as citizens of the greatest country in the world by standing with your hand on your heart facing the flag “ White signifies purity and innocence. Red, hardiness & valour, and Blue… signifies vigilance, perseverance & justice.”. The stars represent the “union” of the states. Added to the description in 1977: “The star is a symbol of the heavens and the divine goal to which man has aspired from time immemorial, and the stripe symbolic of the rays of light emanating from the sun.”….
Sing our National Anthem! “ An anthem is “A patriotic musical composition that evokes and eulogizes the history, traditions, and struggles of its people, recognized either by a nation’s government as the official national song, or by convention through use by the people.”
I admit it is difficult to sing and the range is beyond me, but at least I will stand with my hand over my heart and try!

Korea, the President, football and Prayer.

October 3, 2017

MY PERSONAL OPINION:
I think, NO MATTER how you voted, we should try to be open to support OUR president. If I had been a multimillionaire with a beautiful wife and children – the last thing I would want to do is take on on the headaches and trauma’s some presidents are forced to face. He can always be voted out, and thus far, his sending help to Texas, Florida and now Puerto Rico has been commendable.
I have watched, in my lifetime, N. Korea cause MANY problems prior to this. He did not cause the current problems. I do think he should limit his tweets, but it is his way of trying to reach out to people and state his thoughts. Just because he is president doesn’t mean he doesn’t have free speech. (He should refrain from swearing, I think.) I do love the way he doesn’t pussy foot around and apologize for America. Everyone knows you must stand up to a bull or he will walk all over you!
I agree with his stance on honoring the flag, and National Anthem – which represents all those men and women who have been wounded and died to keep our nation free. As a woman I have enjoyed football, but this was NOT about race. I love my freedom. Hence, I will not honor those who besmear the flag or anthem, and disgrace those who have given so much.
I will live without big time football viewing on television or internet, or in person. These multi-million spoiled children need to know when to protest. If they choose NOT to honor America in these ways, that is their right, but stay in the locker rooms as a sign of respect. If you don’t love AMERICA….(she has made you wealthy), LEAVE!
By the way, “the poor will always be with us”. We are born in bodies we do not choose, and in towns and financial conditions we have no choice about either. Racism was NOT born in the USA. It was born in another place, and grew because someone (of color)- chose money over anything else!
Obama was not my favorite president. It wasn’t because he was black, but because during his time I saw racism bloom again, and disdain for our men in blue grow exponentially. Use the word “decisive”, a word the media has sat squarely on Trump, and you will be just following those who’s tongues hang out on every word that is printed or spoken by them. obama was decisive. “Keep your doctor, keep a plan you like…”
With all the talk of “racism” I still see people of color that are thriving in the USA; I still see the murder rate of blacks murdering blacks way above white murdering blacks. Read everything you can get your hands on if you are interested in “finding” the truth. “The truth will set you free……”
I know Americans are relentless in “giving” to causes that help other humans in need. God bless us one and all for doing what we can. It doesn’t matter if you are grocery shopping, or on line or television, peasants are plagued by requests for CASH. May I say again, ANY of these VERY VERY rich sob’s who have millions upon millions, and billions, could all pitch in and help those in need and they would still be rich….and the matters would be resolved-all around the world could be helped. Come on oprah, bill gates, ANY movie talent, congress members, members of the United Nations, george soros (HAHA), george clooney, comedians, football players, and SO SO MANY MORE!
It has been pointed out to me that many “stars” have given. But I did my homework and for these million and billionaires, their gifts amount to WAY LESS than 10% of their worth. To me that is just paying for advertising for each of them! However, I cannot be the judge of others.
It won’t happen. They may donate time to raise money. They may donate a pittance (and to peasants it seems a lot), when actually it is cheap advertising….alas, we can pray, and volunteer, and do what we can…and we will, for our Spirits are rich.
Last thought for the day….”Football players who feel they must protest – please just leave the space until the “honors” are done. Find another way to protest other than dropping to the knee!
Do not drop to the knee as a show of disrespect, or in a misplaced way of showing displeasure for something that wasn’t even at the forefront of the conversation. Get over yourselves!
I reserve dropping to the knee to humbly pray and show my respect to the Greatest Spirit of All.
(addendum: keep in mind when I do not capitalize names it is because that is my way of showing disrespect.)

Korea, football, the President and Prayer

September 26, 2017

MY PERSONAL OPINION:

I think, NO MATTER how you voted, we should try to be open to support OUR president. If I had been a multimillionaire with a beautiful wife and children – the last thing I would want to do is take on on the headaches and trauma’s some presidents are forced to face. He can always be voted out, and thus far, his sending help to Texas, Florida and now Puerto Rico has been commendable.

I have watched, in my lifetime, N. Korea cause MANY problems prior to this. He did not cause the current problems. I do think he should limit his tweets, but it is his way of trying to reach out to people and state his thoughts. Just because he is president doesn’t mean he doesn’t have free speech. (He should refrain from swearing, I think.) I do love the way he doesn’t pussy foot around and apologize for America. Everyone knows you must stand up to a bull or he will walk all over you!

I agree with his stance on honoring the flag, and National Anthem – which represents all those men and women who have been wounded and died to keep our nation free. As a woman I have enjoyed football, but this was NOT about race. I love my freedom. Hence, I will not honor those who besmear the flag or anthem, and disgrace those who have given so much.

I will live without big time football viewing on television or internet, or in person. These multi-million spoiled children need to know when to protest. If they choose NOT to honor America in these ways, that is their right, but stay in the locker rooms as a sign of respect. If you don’t love AMERICA….who has made you wealthy, LEAVE!

By the way, “the poor will always be with us”. We are born in bodies we do not choose, and in towns and financial conditions we have no choice about either. Racism was NOT born in the USA. It was born in another place, and grew because someone (of color)- chose money over anything else!

Obama was not my favorite president. It wasn’t because he was black, but because during his time I saw racism bloom again, and distain for our men in blue grow exponentially. Use the word “decisive”, a word the media has sat squarely on Trump, and you will be just following those who’s tongues hang out on every word that is printed or spoken by them. obama was
decisive. “Keep your doctor, keep a plan you like…”

I know Americans are relentless in “giving” to causes that help other humans in need. God bless us one and all for doing what we can. It doesn’t matter if you are grocery shopping, or on line or television, peasants are plagued by requests for CASH. May I say again, ANY of these VERY VERY rich sob’s who have millions upon millions, and billions, could all pitch in and help those in need and they would still be rich….and the matters would be resolved-all around the world could be helped. Come on Oprah, Bill Gates, ANY movie talent, congress members, members of the United Nations, george soros (HAHA), George Clooney, comedians, football players, and SO SO MANY MORE!

It won’t happen. They may donate time to raise money. They may donate a pittance (and to peasants it seems a lot), when actually it is cheap advertising….alas, we can pray, and volunteer, and do what we can…and we will, for our Spirits are rich.

Last thought for the day….”Football players who feel they must protest – please just leave the space until the “honors” are done. Find another way to protest other than dropping to the knee!

Do not drop to the knee as a show of disrespect, or in a misplaced way of showing displeasure for something that wasn’t even at the forefront of the conversation. Get over yourselves!

I reserve dropping to the knee to humbly pray and show my respect to the Greatest Spirit of All.

 

 

Pain

August 4, 2017

What happens when the pain is so bad that suddenly you think for a moment “I can’t can’t handle this. The pain is too much!”

Everyone says – “You can handle it – learn to deal with the hand you’ve been dealt. We all have to deal with pain…that’s life!”

Well……..those words are entirely true, but what I say today is “Phewy! Aarrghh! Crappola!
PLEASE don’t preach to the choir! Leave that to God.

We all do have to deal with pain and it sucks. What particularly sucks is that no one else on the planet, even if they have practically the same injury or problem, can understand your pain!
No one can jump right into your shoes, though many really kind and good hearted people (who have possibly dealt with lots of pain in his or her life) may sincerely try. It just isn’t happening.

It is YOUR pain, and yours alone. I can’t even describe the pain that almost left me unable to put any weight on my right ankle this afternoon. It didn’t last a lengthy time, like the pain that has become my constant companion from by back exploding. I guess you could say I am used to that pain. It varies in intensity, but shows up regularly each day, sometime after I put weight on my little frame of bones.

I tell you, God made the human body so strong and resilient that it never ceases to amaze me. During a lifetime I have participated in, or seen an ocean of pain from multiple sources….and yet people have healed, as best is possible with time and a bit of concentrated work.

Of course when you break that rare crystal bowl that sat on the table, even though you fixed it professionally…it will always have a weakness. It may look fine sitting on the table, but perhaps with time someone will put too much weight on it, or be careless handling it, and the bowl could succumb to that one incident of tragedy, then it hit the floor!

The human body is much stronger than the bowl. When I was in my twenties it seemed as if I challenged the endurance and healing power of the body, mind and spirit – simultaneously! I think that is still known as “partying”. Thank you God for your grace and in your undeserved mercy… I survived “myself”!

I sit down to write just a paragraph or two and it always winds up to be something I could just keep doing on. I love to write – I actually love to share life in this way….experiences I’ve had, thoughts I have, experiences of others, and those moments that make life worth “going beyond the pain!….back to the point of this post.

What was the point? Something about pain………hahahaha! The number one way to handle pain is DIVERSON, and that is exactly what I did! It works! (I really hope you don’t have too much pain to handle. I know it sucks. But it is “do-able”.). I send love and healing vibrations- and I am not just saying that! Ask my husband. He says “How can you care about people your don’t even know?” Well, that is easy! I am human, aren’t you? We are all REALLY connected in that way. Besides, Jesus said to love one another, and I love Jesus! Makes sense, eh?

Hug yourself. I just hugged myself and I needed it! You deserve a good hug!

This is a post that hasn’t been checked for errors and is 100% spontaneous. I hope it was worthy of a read. At least it was free!

hollywood (or as I prefer to call it hollyweird)

July 30, 2017

This is just a short post  expressing MY point of view about that group who like to be known as “stars”. (NOT ALL, mind you, but a majority).

I am sick to death of all these “do-gooders” who say “This is good – this is bad”. They are human beings like the rest of us, except they make way too much money for what they do. Similar to the wage of athletes!

Here are a few of the things they present to us, after voicing big opinions and donating time (NOT MONEY), to their special causes and things that are really none of their damn business.
One thing they don’t know about is the REAL WORLD of human beings.

Used to love to dance to madonna when I taught fitness, but she has been such a loose canyon, a piece of trash and pervert for so many years I can’t even stand her not one tiny bit. Then standing up for women and saying the things she said – not my representative. Nor is the other piece of garbage (won’t mention her name) – who brought up women’s personal monthly time, in tasteless defense of what…trash talk?)

Now hollyweird in general. If you have been reading my blog you know when I have no respect for someone or something or place – I don’t capitalize. To me that reflects my disrespect in my small way.

I am up to my limit on hearing the name “Jesus” or “Jesus Christ” as a swear word. Even if I weren’t a Christian (of my own beliefs,) I would have respect for a man the caliber of Jesus in His historical record – as one of the most amazing human beings that has ever lived…

I understand when people say goddammit…don’t like it, but many believe there is more than one god. To offend me you would have to use the Great Spirit’s proper name, which is Jehovah.

But STOP with the using Jesus name as a swear word! How would it be if I said barrack Obama as a swear word, or someone you admired or loved. Remember my capitalization rule.

Next is the blatant disregard for the fact cigarettes kill people. Hollyweird is making it look cool again. NOT cool. Have you ever been with anyone dying of cancer or unable to breathe?

High on the list is violence and it’s association with sex and love. It makes me literally want to puke when I see some of the trash that is presented to the public. And the ratings are a big fat joke.

I went to rent movies for the weekend for a change and spent a while looking. I didn’t rent anything. I can tell you whats wrong with the people who watch lots of movies…hollyweird is brain-washing us!

EVERYTHING HAS BECOME COMMONPLACE! There is NOTHING special any more. You meet someone and within ten minutes he has backed you up against a wall and is doing you…not even a first date.

The ever so small percentage of honestly “unusual” people is brought to the forefront and PUSHED on us. IT is OKAY to ignore the physiology of the human body. We (even in schools now) are being trained to be unisex…..Soon everyone will work for the man and then watch a movie to be told what to think and what to do (Television is definitely included.) HBO, Netflix, etc….nothing is sacred anymore. And for the MAJORITY of us who are boring and normal, we have to listen to whining and moaning pressed upon us, to fulfill hollyweird’s agendas.

Because of multiple injuries to my husband (a few years ago) and myself-starting six years ago, we have done lots of sitting and watching! He really enjoys television and is one human being who sees the “trend” of mind-bending hollyweird is procuring on the population by unscrupulous and indirect means, through the media. However being a man of relentless strength of character, he sees right through it instead of changing….speaking of which I have a bone to pick with the media.

Millions of people live happily and safely every day, but instead of reporting as I believe it used to be, the things that are picked with a fine tooth comb are the nastiest of events that are either gory or insidious. They are events that work at ripping the fiber of us into shreds, and separating us.

Can’t bitch any more! It is too beautiful a day and I will not waste another moment on trash.
I just PRAY for the children and grandchildren – and for all of us who still live with God’s law guiding us. W have hope for the future. You do not have to be perfect to follow “the good”. I surely have made more mistakes in life than most, but still try to more onward and upward.

The legion of evil is many, but behind and in front, and within each of us, we quietly hold the truth and know the strength we will have in union when the time comes……….

 

 

WELCOME and GOOD MORNING

July 28, 2017

Time is of the essence. Perhaps the written record of one lost life saved, is not going to rescue the masses or feed the hungry. I guess you could say the essence of my life has been God and survival. My story spans the lives of many people in the one earthly body. Time took me from one place to another, sometimes by chance, others by choice, and still others by the hand of God and path provided by Jesus Christ. I am still meandering across my destiny….but now the end of the rocky trail is in my sight.

I know having to take pain medication, to maintain a sense of wholeness, is not good for me.
I keep a tight watch so that I take it and it does not take me. I know taking something to sleep through the night takes a toll on my poor brain, but I need to sleep. My dreams may be affected – or perhaps it is the length and breadth of the story of my life invades me while I sleep.

I want to fly again in my dreams. I remember clearly. I know how from simply standing I elevate and then us my arms and body to maneuver…between the buildings, over the pasture, high above the fabric of incidents that weave the human state on this earth today. It will not be forever that I can’t remember how.

As I close my eyes I want to pray the earnest prayer of grateful appreciation to my Master.
I want, as I drift off to sleep to see the road moving as if I were walking, but I am just above walking….the trees change and are thick and exquisite on the sides and I look ahead unable to tell if it is the sun rising or setting. It is just at the point of color and size that it almost tricks the eyes. But I know today the sun sets with a glow that leaves light along the path.

I know it is setting because before the sun rises the birds awaken and sing first a light and breezy good morning, and then a choir to the morning with a multitude of individual, wonderful birds.

Its as if the sinking of the sun is making way for the fullest of moons to peek, almost melding as the sun sinks, the moon rises to light the sky – in the same place and at the same moment.

I am certain there are a plethora of untapped and unseen resources that can be available for us all, but now for only those who are given the eyes to see and the ears to hear.

Be thee careful of thy words. Words can give life and can harm life. Each word has a meaning and before the words are spoken they a formed with thought. Careless words can rip and tear like a madman with the sharpest of knives.

Of course we can heal. We have been given the best of instruments with specific talents given to no other creatures on this planet. But if given a choice I would rather have a physical injury that one offered up by cruel words. After all the years the physical has healed. The wounds inflicted by unworthy words heal the slowest of all, and will leave a tender scar within the heart…for words alert the heart and senses of what is, perhaps, to come. Be thee careful with thy words.

My intent as I began to write this was actually not to post this…ah but why not! There is no reason to stop now. I still have time and am able! Maybe someone will read and enjoy my words as much as I enjoy writing them! I have high hopes.

Have an amazing day. Stop for one moment and hug yourself. Look into a mirror past what you see, and say -“ I love me, I am supposed to love me. I am God’s one of a kind!. I appreciate all I try to do for others. It always feels good, though it seems there is never enough time.” And if no one said “Thank you” remember the good you do enhances YOU and is for
your growth and well-being. They may not have been taught to say thank you, they may not have thought to say thank you, or they may just be little selfish people – I say little intently.
Your heart and kindness is growing as I write – I just know it!

Love and blessings- Remember I mean things when I say or write or pray the words! So again, LOVE and BLESSINGS to you all! Thanks for taking time to be a part of me.

Don’t forget to praise any attempt from someone to do or say “good.”

DREAMS, DREAMS, DREAMS

July 25, 2017

Some are amazing and some are not.  Read no further if the latter concerns you.

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I think I would wake less tired if I didn’t have a second life in dreams. Last night was a bad night. My brain, I think, is on “overload” – how many challenges in the day time can one handle, let alone all the wee hours of the night.

Studies reveal dreams are only brief moments before we wake, but I beg to differ with that theory. Step into my head and you will find a lifetime in the shadows of the silent hours of that time which is supposed to regenerate mind and body.

I am exhausted this morning for many reasons. Residual effects of the broken back can sometimes leave me in physical disarray, particularly in the morning after a special day of pain and trials. Some mornings I open my eyes, only to close them, because I know movement will be such a challenge.

This morning I spent the night clearly in the repetitive hell of memory brewing a fresh horror, more like “the continuing story of the nightmares of my life”. I know because I remember everything distinctly. Sometimes for days, sometime for years. I can close my eyes and re-enter the dream exactly where I first transferred from sleep to opening my eyes.

I was in a hotel room. A large hotel that I could peek out the door and look \a long way down the line of rooms…but it wasn’t just a hallway. It was a small street with no vehicles and cobblestone. I was not afraid. It was decent, nice even. Though I remember looking out the window near the bed, and there was an alley or small street, dimly lit. I closed the curtain quickly because wisdom told me it was a better choice than peering into that particular area.

My clothes were hanging neatly in the closet across from the sink. It was next to a locked door that led to the next room. I checked to make sure it was locked.

I write about my dreams for the same reason I always write. I write because I love to do so. I want to share wisdom gained by working through the mucky times, and climbing up the ladder to see clearly all around. It feels like she is prodding me to share some of the help I feel still holds me up from the bottomless lake we all paddle around in for so much of our lives.

I write about the dreams like last night simply to release them from my mind, else wise they would keep activating in my consciousness. I aim to keep them powerless over the present and real strength.

Evil sometimes dies, but the stench of spiritless creatures, particularly if they ended in trauma,
can affect our minds….if we allow them too. For evil is present and gaining strength for the moment……

Rape and abuse are so invasive. They are injuries that are the most difficult to heal, and some of the most heartless attacks on the innocent. So was it for me in that alternate world last night.

None of us are pure. With one exception. However most of us at present do not have evil residing in a permanent place within us. Try as they may, the legion, we have the power to overcome and rise above – ANYTHING.

I was accosted again in this dream. Twisted, and worked like warm clay ready to mold. From the inside of my head the confronter was as clear as this moment and wore a suit of silk and mohair. He seduced me with his presence, for he came in cognate and wore “calm and true”, to once again fool and apprehend me. I knew this evil spirit before but was told years ago he had ended when he committed suicide.

By the time I recognized evil it was almost too late. Much of the dream need not be revealed. There is an abundance of horror presented to us every day as “news”. Use your mind to create offensive and abrupt deliverance of evil, if you so choose, or give it only a flip of a thought and move forward with me in this dream I hope I won’t visit again.

A change of time and I found myself loading the gun I carried with me. Sitting outside under a small tree was the creature void of any good spirit – Evil once again sat with someone else (he had already molested a child, and an elderly couple). There are many methods of molestation and all are evil. He was still wearing the suit of silk and mohair.

The most insidious crime of evil is involving a child.

I took out the gun, loaded and cocked it and aimed my shot. I still hear it whirring through the air. I thought it was targeted as a direct hit, a hit to kill, but apparently I was off just a hair as when the ambulance came I saw his head lift slightly and his eyes open for a moment as they carried him off. Another “someone” he fooled, was walking next to him. He was adoring him, fully engulfed in his deceit.

The next moment I found myself tearing clothes off the hangers and throwing things into a suitcase. I knew I would be blamed and with only a few understanding, would be taken off to be imprisoned.

My sister appeared and she knew. As I stopped for a moment I took a breath and closed my eyes. When I opened them I was laying in bed stiff from the pain, from the tips of my toes to the bottom of my head. I closed my eyes and returned….I opened my eyes and jolted up…..trying to breathe and relax those permanently injured parts of this human body. I walked to the kitchen. Stopped to say hello to the dog, got a cup of coffee, and here I sit, finishing the record of my dream life when asleep.

I am better now. Releasing is urgent so as not to have a buildup of evil residing from within.
I am fortunate to have faith in the power given to me by the Holy Spirit. It is real and as I activate the power through breathing in new life, I deactivate evil by now placing it far away and behind me.

Onward and upward I go.

Human Intelligence or Not?

July 11, 2017

Human intelligence fluctuates with habits. We become what we hear, see, and are told.
You have to dumb down to be fixated on what the advertisers are selling. The perfect face, the perfect body, perfect sex, the perfect home, the perfect toy, the perfect wardrobe, perfect furnishings and electronics, the perfect car, and so forth.

Really? Do we really need to buy because the money machine tells us to do so? Buy it all and then die young from the stress in trying to pay for everything. This is not a joke.
Stress kills.

Do you really think it is entertainment to go to the mall with your children? Where is the hell did you get that idea? Oh, never mind, I know.

Black Friday – REALLY? Grey Thursday? Let me grab my wallet and go buy a bunch of prettily packaged up JUNK made IN CHINA. It will last long enough to get the next model of stuff out so your new purchases will be outdated.

This year, just for fun, I am giving some of my FAVORITE things to my family. Why wait for them to get it until I am dead? Of course that may be years (I hope) – but I want them to enjoy some things I love the most NOW.

Material things come and go. Love is forever.