Posts Tagged ‘personal’

GETTING OLDER

March 13, 2017

Whoever coined the phrases “growing old gracefully” and “the golden years” should be strung up on the nearest tree!

I don’t know how you grow old gracefully when your body becomes less agile and your ability to stretch is limited because you are afraid you’ll “snap” like an old rubber band.

I have no idea if those years are golden as my eyesight is not as good as it once was, and the insurance I paid into all my life doesn’t cover glasses or teeth (and those are the first things to go!) That’s Medicare of course.

Somehow in my education I didn’t realize-but you’d better- over a hundred dollars will be deducted for part B, before you even get social security. Then of course you have to pay for a supplement each month because Medicare doesn’t cover everything. The tricky part is if Medicare won’t cover any part of a procedure; neither will the supplement you are paying for -to the tune of over $150. a month ( and that is considered cheap if you can find one for that low price.) However, if you break your back (like I did) a good plan will keep you from loosing everything because there will be no cost to you except the monthly payment.

By the way, once you apply for Medicare you get a non-stop snail mail box full of “life insurance applications for your family to have, and burial insurance so they won’t suffer from the cost when you croak. I mean it is non-stop. Thanks for reminding my life of this planet will soon be over. Didn’t have enough to think about!

I plan to be “taken care of” the cheapest way possible. – Burn baby burn. I won’t take up precious space on this planet to plant my body and have people come there to tearfully remember me. I would rather plant flowers there! Also, in my world to come, I trust God will know how to fix everything my poor body has suffered in this lifetime.

After so many years the body just starts to kind of give out, and you never know when or where it will happen. After the first injury or accident then everyone is afraid to let you do anything because you may fall again. (For me, specifically, my broken back). I don’t know if that’s because they worry about you, or because they don’t want to have to take care of you again….

No worries. I swear you’ll never hear “I’ve fallen and I can’t get up” come from my mouth! Older people are usually spoken of as the butt of jokes. The ironic thing is one day those folks will be the butt of the jokes-for now they are just butts!

Heaven forbid you want to do something really fun — “It’s not a good idea.” “It’s too dangerous”. If I weren’t happily married I’d go out and have unprotected sex just for the danger factor. (NOT REALLY)

“It’s not a good idea to go barefooted.” “You’d better not get a dog.” “Watch what you eat.” “Etc, etc. etc.

Kill me now.

If you find you have to use a walker, you will also discover the most humbling time of your life. We take walking for granted, like breathing, until we can’t. Never take one of these gifts for granted. But if you wind up on a walker, be grateful for it, and make sure you have a phone attached, and a basket so you can function at least minimally!

When you find you need to use a cane because some uncaring medical people left you out in the cold until you are in permanent disrepair, don’t worry about accidentally forgetting it…everyone will remind you that you need to take the cane.

The baggers at the grocery store begin to call you ma’am, and ask if you need help carrying one bag to the car. Don’t be foolish, take the help and save your energy for fun. Besides you will have conversations with many people who help you, and sometimes be grateful for the communication. Teenagers look at you like you have already died, and of course lost your mind way before that!

When you hear a whistle you know it’s just some older person grasping at the talent of whistling. “Whistling” – a talent once appreciated – long ago!. You know it’s not a “whistle” meant for you because you are so sexy and have such a stunning figure. I still am cute as a button though. I keep reminding my husband of that, planting a gentle seed.

Everything drops. What they don’t tell you if your feet get bigger too, and all the hair that used to grow on your legs just grows on your face now!

I don’t feel guilty about not being Martha Stewart in the housekeeping department, I will go outside and sit in the sun (still with book in hand) and read to my heart’s content. With my glasses off my home is perfectly dust free. With your husbands glasses off your wrinkles will hardly be noticeable.

What is “grandma in a box”? Well it’s not a coffin I’ll tell you that! I was going to wrap me in a box in birthday paper and surprise my granddaughter for her birthday. With my luck I probably would have suffocated and surprised her with grandma falling to the floor dead! Not a good surprise. Either that or be so stiff I would be permanently unable to move from being stuffed in the box.

When you turn 65 – face it – you may still feel 45 in your mind – but the REAL prejudice is against those of us who live long enough to be known as “the old folks, old people, our elderly, the over the hill gang, seniors (say isn’t a senior in high school or college someone to be looked up to and revered?)

I could write a book about it all, but just to let you know – my wits are about me! My memory is as sharp as ever. I am still the captain of my ship and God the Master of my mind. I really am still “too sexy for my shirt”, and my cane doubles as a weapon so that if anyone pulls any crap on me I can beat them to death with it – and I wouldn’t hesitate.

I don’t hold back and just “be nice” – IF someone deserves to be told off I will do it with wit and class – but I will do it. I don’t hold anything inside. I dress exactly the way I want to, and love the freedom.

When no one is looking (ha ha) I will do what I damn please and take any risk I opt to…why not? There isn’t too much I haven’t done in my life (a lot I wish I hadn’t done), and what the heck is the difference. It could kill me?

No one knows when they are through with being on this earth – at best my life is less than two decades, and so if you see me flying through the air with some young stud attached to my back, don’t be surprised!

I probably will be holding tight to my husband, whom I still adore, sitting behind him on his Harley, going a 100 miles an -hour down some back road!

Life doesn’t have to be over just because you have aged like a fine, fine wine! Or better yet in my case, an aged bottle of good whiskey! One that gives warmth to your innards, and a glow on your cheeks.

Keep your sense of humor. If you’ve lost it, find it and right away before you forget what you are looking for…..and smile!

LET US WAKE UP BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE!

March 1, 2017

Human intelligence fluctuates with habits. We become what we hear, see, and are told.
“They” have to dumb us down for us to be fixated on what the advertisers are selling. The perfect face, the perfect body, perfect sex, the perfect home, the perfect toy, the perfect wardrobe, perfect furnishings and electronics, the perfect car, and so forth.

Really? Do we really need to buy because the money machine tells us to do so? Buy it all and then die young from the stress in trying to pay for everything. This is not a joke!
Stress kills.

Should we really think it is entertainment to go to the mall with our children and friends? Where is the hell did we get that idea? Oh, never mind, I know.

Black Friday – REALLY? Grey Thursday? Technological what day? Let me grab my wallet and go buy a bunch of prettily packaged up JUNK made IN CHINA. It will last long enough to get the next model of stuff out so our new purchases will be outdated.

We need to open our eyes. Get out of the “habit” of buying! Material things come and go. Love is forever.

Pretty simple.

Tips for a Great Day!

February 24, 2017

These are a few of my favorite things anyone has said to me in my entire life. I have tried to base my actions and my days on these things.

Someone once told me I have the faint cracklings of a healer. I loved that. I would love to heal everything – people, scenarios, reasons for war and discontent, communication between people. I cannot of course – but I can keep trying.

My daughter told me once that I channel what I believe…I channel God. Now I know I have not always, for sure, been a true reflection, but it surely inspired me.

I was told that my presence at that particular time, to that particular person was that of an angel. I have been told that several times, and I loved that to aspire to…Wasn’t that lovely? Of course I know I am not – but I fly in my dreams – and I know I could in this life, if I could just remember how!

My son told me he was sorry for all the times he had been mean to me. I was shocked. I never thought a thing of it because we all have our “growth” spurts, and love is unconditional and forever. He said he guessed he was because all through his life I had always been there – in the good times, and in the very bad times. It touched my heart though love never runs away because of fear or distress.

More than once people have said, “I like your smile. It made me smile.” Cool. Less wrinkles to smile, more fun.

I have had a full life thus far, and though most of it is behind me, I look forward to seeing what is next. I want me to be my best ever. I have learned from a thousand mistakes and poor choices, and from that which was not even my fault.

I prayed for guidance last night and woke up to write. I allow myself an hour to pray, read and write upon waking. It is a delicious time.

I could tell you so many terrible things I remember in my lifetime, but the thing about being human is that if we focus on the GOOD – look upward and move onward – and LEARN, we will blossom like a flower. I’d rather be a flower than a prickly cactus. Smiling is so much easier.

Do something for someone today (something little or big) and don’t tell a soul! It will be tempting to talk about it, but it is so much more exhilarating to have the deed between you and whomever you believe as a creator. The Creator watches.

If you don’t believe in a higher power, then silently think about the deed and be proud of your choice, amidst all the tension and delusion that is happening around the world. It will bring a smile to your face sometime-probably more than once. It’s good to share love.

And if you think of the horrible days and comments made to you, then STOP IT. That was then. You can’t take anything back, so pass the good forward.

This is now. On your mark….get set….go!

 

 

Today

February 23, 2017

I woke up exceptionally early this morning. I lay in bed thinking. I thought about prayers. I thought about God. I thought about my life, and how much of it I’ve missed!

Really. I feel like it has slipped through my fingers like a palm full of oil when you open your fingers….drip, drip, drip away. My back ached (it always does, but that is the way it is) – when I fell, landing on my back, I knew I was in trouble. I just didn’t know how much.

My Rottie came over and sat next to me and I instinctively reached up and felt the lush soft fur just below her neck.

I looked at the blue sky, dotted with those clouds that form into something when you watch them pass. I had just been thanking God for everything in my life being calm and peaceful, and close to perfect. Then wouldn’t you know it, life took me on a turn I shall not forget, though after four years of challenges (and I mean hell sometimes), I sit here typing another piece of my heart.

“Everything changes”, mama used to say. “Everything except God and my love for you.”
I knew she meant it.

We can criticize others. Blame circumstances on conditions, and punish ourselves for making so many mistakes along the way. But isn’t there enough of that going on?

Oh God, I want to be of value, of service to you. We are all human as you are well aware, and
for US, I ask you remain faithful in your patience and grace. I still can’t figure out why I have been given so many opportunities to “rise above my circumstances, and survive!”

We are small little human beings in a maze of life. The majority of us, I still believe, still having love, potential, and goodness.

Guide our thoughts and deeds. Perhaps you give us a jolt a time or two to recognize how little time we have and really how very much power we have in just a word or deed.

My mouth has been filthy at times in my life (not as bad as Ashley Judd – her mama must be proud) – and sometimes my actions less than acceptable. I know that. I also know because I believe in you and your Son Jesus Christ, I am forgiven! I am loved. Jesus took the brunt of my deeds and paid the price. I never take that for granted.

Please keep vigilant over your children and give us a push in the right direction when we are overcome by the trash with the loudest voices. We do not have to succumb.

My husband readies himself to leave and devote his time and health and energy to keeping us “floating” above debt and despair. God bless ALL who must leave their families to provide for them.

Please guide us, your creations, to kind words and at least one thoughtful and unexpected act of love today. We don’t need to tell anyone….just do something. THANK YOU. I stand on my small bandwagon to declare my love for you, and the POWER and ENDLESS energy to heal and keeping going……if only we ask and believe.

The Meaning of Life

February 6, 2017

No one knows the exact meaning of life!  We all have a personal interpretation of it. But one thing that is certain: we are not meant to go through our lives worrying about every detail that crosses our paths.  The result of doing this manifests mental and physical damage to our minds and bodies, and can literally ruin our lives!
That which seems so important to us, things that often occupy our attention and fill our days with stress, are results, not causes; they are secondary, not first. We are so busy or so shaken with our outer lives, we forget what our goals are, and even if we remember and reach them, we are still left restless and dissatisfied.
Sometimes when we wonder what the real meaning of life is, we let our thoughts get heavy and desperate. We forget the wonder and joy of every day.  It is easy to do in this world.
Life is not to be explained in terms of aims and ends and goals, but only in terms of living this moment, moment after moment.
Life is consciousness. There is a direct relationship between our thoughts, attitudes and beliefs and what happens in our lives.  We are NOT powerless pawns whose experiences are determined by other people and worldly conditions.
Stress management techniques and various trainings are a powerful ally to thousands of people who seek to express dominion over their circumstances, and really change their lives.
Before you can have dominion over your circumstances, you MUST have DOMINION over your oxygen and your body. It sounds simple, but truthfully, how many times today have you thought about your breathing or done something positive for your body?
“Mind, body and spirit” are all finely woven together to become your life. Whether negative and unhealthy, or positive and healthy, your life is pretty much your choice. You just have to make the decision to really change from within yourself.
As we think we create brain cell impressions.  Remember that any state of mind manifests itself as our experience.  When you are grounded and relaxed, you are in control of your body’s responses, you will create positive and powerful brain cell impressions.
Remember:  Any consciousness or state of mind will linger. When we are angry the feelings often remain with us for hours.  When we are happy the joy can color our world beautifully can be lasting too.
Memories will stir the emotions repeatedly, IF we allow that to happen. The winds of turmoil hits all of us, but if you can accept, adapt, and control your response to whatever you need to, by using your oxygen and thereby controlling your bodily responses, you will change your life for the better (and the lives of those around you).  By taking charge of your thoughts you can eliminate a problem that you are worried about that might never take place.
ANY change takes practice, practice, practice, and then the knowledge and belief it will work.  We have miracles stored up within! It sounds like work – but it is opening a door to a new life, and a new you!
Go forth in spite of all difficulties.  Every day new vistas, and new revelations will come to you.  By the science of controlling your own life energy, you will master subtle gifts you have been given.  You have the capacity to change your life through your own CHOICES.
Think: strength and peace and transcend the lack of harmony and contradictions of life.  Mistakes and errors are in your mind.  Let your soul force (your life’s breath) drive the negative from you.  Our lives are largely our perceptions from within, even more so than conditions without.  Cultivate harmony from within and you will spread it to others.
Everywhere you go, even into the most incongruous circumstances, you will be able to find and nurture an underlying harmony.
Always take a slow and mindful breath, and then exhale slowly too. Whenever you feel you are out of control, stop. Use your oxygen. Be in charge of slowing your mind and your body’s responses. It is a MIRACLE you carry with you.

You don’t have to think about it as it is a natural act…your breathing. But you can find the miracle of life if you take a moment or two and use your oxygen mindfully.
Think before you speak.  Choose a positive response to the situation, and you will find a “new you” emerging.

You can read this and then go on to something else, or you can dissect it and re-read it and REALLY choose to leave your “out of control” life behind, and do the easiest exercise in the world to reinvent your life…BREATHE!

The meaning of life? Who knows! But whatever it is, YOU HAVE the OPTION of being in charge of YOU and enjoying each moment on the journey to see what happens next!

(I am not kidding about this. I broke my back almost four years ago, and went from partially paralyzed in a wheelchair, having to learn to walk again..baby steps, using a cane and starting what I have left of life over….yesterday I ventured out without a cane! I attribute this to lots of prayer, and lots of challenges being met with BREATHING, BREATHING, BREATHING! I want YOU to climb the mountain with me.)

You can’t change anyone else.

January 2, 2017

approaching-stormYou can change. You cannot change anyone else. He or she can change, but it will only happen for some people when they have gone “as far as they can go” – the other way.

Keep praying. Keep hope.

There will be a day when strong groups meld together and keep the faith silently, as eons before now. Many will loose hope and try to find another way. Never loose hope. In our hearts is a cornerstone that must be recognized before the heart can function wholly. The emptiness within will never be filled until acknowledgement that this is the way of things…once and for all.

Do not play with fire. Do not arouse unseen things that you have little knowledge of unless you are able to be certain which way the wind blows. If your feet stand firmly and heart unshaken in the face of fear. Look to the East. There is always a way, but to find it you must follow your path and open your heart to understanding and forgiveness.

 

 

 

This post is important!

November 29, 2016

I wrote a post of Facebook this morning and I want as many people who happen by to read and share it….Marsha J. O’Brien

BE SAFE!  KEEP your families, self, and friends AWARE………In Ca. with AB109, Proposition 57 passing, and such poverty and need – it will not get easier.  BE PREPARED!

 


 

 

IMPORTANT

November 15, 2016

I THINK WE SHOULD BE discussing this! This is important enough for all Californian and nearby states to pay attention to for your families and children. This prop just passed. It is entitled:

“ Proposition 57 Public Safety & Rehabilitation Act of 2016.”……………………………………………………………………………..

(Sounds good, however, we all need to read “the fine print” on this one!)

“Things like use of a date rape drug, physical child abuse, spousal abuse, those are not consider a serious and violent crime,”

Susan Fisher, former chair of the parole board (and sister of a murder victim)

10’s of thousands WILL BE RELEASED.

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“In California, the following crimes are not technically considered “violent,” so therefore, qualify as “non-serious, non-violent offense” eligible for early release in Governor Brown’s Proposition 57….

(I am listing only a few in each category. For full list see reference below.)

Terrorism-related crimes – Exploding or attempting to explode a destruction device in a specified place (e.g. health facility, place of worship, bookstore, library, courthouse,……

Possession of a restricted, biological agent.

Mingling Poison or harmful substance with any food, drink, or medicine, or placing a poison or harmful substance in a spring, well, or water supply.

Domestic Violence crimesDomestic violence resulting in traumatic condition.

Violating restraining order that involves credible threat of violence.

Stalking when defendant has prior felony conviction for domestic violence.

Elder/Dependent Adult abuse – False imprisonment of an elder or dependent adult by violence, menace, fraud or deceit.

Inflicting physical pain or mental suffering on an elder or dependent adult..

Caretaker committing theft, embezzlement, forgery, fraud or identity theft against an elder.

Gang Related Crimes – Active participation in a criminal street gang.

Carrying a loaded firearm or in a vehicle where the defendant has a prior felony conviction….etc.

Violating restrained order that involved credible threat of violence.

Making a credible threat to cause serious bodily injury and within 30 days entering the victim’s residence or workplace with intent to carry out the threat.

The state will save hundreds of millions on this passing. However many others not listed will be eligible under this prop. Included is rape to an unconscious victim, corporal punishment to a child, human traffic/ sex acts with minor, drive by shooting hate crimes, rape by intoxication – ETC. ETC.

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Lock and load…or do whatever it is you do to keep your family safe. The last group of early releases look like a group of babies in comparison to what is going to happen…..

 

 

 

 

 

 

(Reference:   www.klaaskids.org/blog/?p=2509)

I THINK WE SHOULD BE discussing this! This is important enough for all Californian and nearby states to pay attention to for your families and children. This prop just passed. It is entitled:

 

 

“ Proposition 57 Public Safety & Rehabilitation Act of 2016.”

……………………………………………………………………………..

(Sounds good, however, we all need to read “the fine print” on this one!)

 

 

“Things like use of a date rape drug, physical child abuse, spousal abuse, those are not consider a serious and violent crime,”

Susan Fisher, former chair of the parole board (and sister of a murder victim)

 

10’s of thousands WILL BE RELEASED.

—————————————————————————————–

“In California, the following crimes are not technically considered “violent,” so therefore, qualify as “non-serious, non-violent offense” eligible for early release in Governor Brown’s Proposition 57….

 

Terrorism-related crimes – Exploding or attempting to explode a destruction device in a specified place (e.g. health facility, place of worship, bookstore, library, courthouse,……

 

Possession of a restricted, biological agent.

 

Mingling Poison or harmful substance with any food, drink, or medicine, or placing a poison or harmful substance in a spring, well, or water supply.

 

 

Domestic Violence crimesDomestic violence resulting in traumatic condition.

 

Violating restraining order that involves credible threat of violence.

 

Stalking when defendant has prior felony conviction for domestic violence.

 

 

Elder/Dependent Adult abuse – False imprisonment of an elder or dependent adult by violence, menace, fraud or deceit.

 

Inflicting physical pain or mental suffering on an elder or dependent adult..

 

Caretaker committing theft, embezzlement, forgery, fraud or identity theft against an elder.

 

 

Gang Related Crimes – Active participation in a criminal street gang.

 

 

Carrying a loaded firearm or in a vehicle where the defendant has a prior felony conviction….etc.

 

Violating restrained order that involved credible threat of violence.

 

Making a credible threat to cause serious bodily injury and within 30 days entering the victim’s residence or workplace with intent to carry out the threat.

 

The state will save hundreds of millions on this passing. However many others not listed will be eligible under this prop. Included is rape to an unconscious victim, corporal punishment to a child, human traffic/ sex acts with minor, drive by shooting hate crimes, rape by intoxication – ETC. ETC.

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Lock and load…..or do whatever it is you do to keep your family safe. The last group of early releases look like a group of babies in comparison to what is going to happen…..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I THINK WE SHOULD BE discussing this! This is important enough for all Californian and nearby states to pay attention to for your families and children. This prop just passed. It is entitled:

 

 

“ Proposition 57 Public Safety & Rehabilitation Act of 2016.”

……………………………………………………………………………..

(Sounds good, however, we all need to read “the fine print” on this one!)

 

 

“Things like use of a date rape drug, physical child abuse, spousal abuse, those are not consider a serious and violent crime,”

Susan Fisher, former chair of the parole board (and sister of a murder victim)

 

10’s of thousands WILL BE RELEASED.

—————————————————————————————–

“In California, the following crimes are not technically considered “violent,” so therefore, qualify as “non-serious, non-violent offense” eligible for early release in Governor Brown’s Proposition 57….

 

Terrorism-related crimes – Exploding or attempting to explode a destruction device in a specified place (e.g. health facility, place of worship, bookstore, library, courthouse,……

 

Possession of a restricted, biological agent.

 

Mingling Poison or harmful substance with any food, drink, or medicine, or placing a poison or harmful substance in a spring, well, or water supply.

 

 

Domestic Violence crimesDomestic violence resulting in traumatic condition.

 

Violating restraining order that involves credible threat of violence.

 

Stalking when defendant has prior felony conviction for domestic violence.

 

 

Elder/Dependent Adult abuse – False imprisonment of an elder or dependent adult by violence, menace, fraud or deceit.

 

Inflicting physical pain or mental suffering on an elder or dependent adult..

 

Caretaker committing theft, embezzlement, forgery, fraud or identity theft against an elder.

 

 

Gang Related Crimes – Active participation in a criminal street gang.

 

 

Carrying a loaded firearm or in a vehicle where the defendant has a prior felony conviction….etc.

 

Violating restrained order that involved credible threat of violence.

 

Making a credible threat to cause serious bodily injury and within 30 days entering the victim’s residence or workplace with intent to carry out the threat.

 

The state will save hundreds of millions on this passing. However many others not listed will be eligible under this prop. Included is rape to an unconscious victim, corporal punishment to a child, human traffic/ sex acts with minor, drive by shooting hate crimes, rape by intoxication – ETC. ETC.

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Lock and load…..or do whatever it is you do to keep your family safe. The last group of early releases look like a group of babies in comparison to what is going to happen…..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Picking up the pieces

September 25, 2016

 

I opened the refrigerator and saw the crystal bowl, as if in slow motion, drop in waves and then hit the floor with a mighty sound of glass splintering and grapes breaking off into all directions.

People use God’s name is so many situations. Thank God it’s cooled down. Thank God no one was hurt. Thank God the storm was less than expected. I often wonder if the name of God is even recognized any more, and if God has become just a phrase to express relief. I wonder if people really mean THANK GOD.

Thank God no splinters flew into the eyes of my puppy, standing off a far, looking as if he had done something wrong. I wondered if he would run off to the “naughty room”, his dog house, as he does when he carries something in his mouth that doesn’t belong there.

No, thank God he stood still and just watched, along with my good old girl, Dakota. Black as the night, wide eyed as children, they just waited for some reaction from me. To their surprise, I laughed. Why not.

My husband says to open any door or cupboard anywhere in the house is like looking for a bomb to explode. This time he was right. No one got cut. The bowl was just a material object, and the only other loss was a bunch of grapes.

I cleaned everything up. Looked at the precarious position of an opened twelve pack of Ginger Ale, I and decided to leave them where they were on the third shelf. Why not live dangerously….

It was so much easier to laugh and smile than to let the current situation overcome my senses and my life. I knew this too would pass.

Now think of politics. Let it go. It is not going to be life-changing to throw away all the moments and days we spend worrying. Let it go, and as it’s been said many times before….

Let it go and let God! The only control we really have is our response to life. I tried being miserable and it sucked. So I gave it up.

Dream

September 19, 2016

I recently saw a movie entitled “Equals” – my husband slept through most of it, though it rang several familiar bells in my head.  It was okay, but just gently interesting and and basically a love story.  It reminded me of a book I had read years and years ago – “1984 (better remembered as “Big Brother).

I actually followed up on that thought and found the director or producer of this filmed had pretty much followed the books theme.  As many current movies do, an older book or movie is picked clean and presented to the multitudes as a “new and spectacular” themed movie.

The Bible says:  “There is nothing new under the sun….” What it means is that anything we experience now has already been experienced and to believe that you have a fresh new idea, way of thinking, activity or anything than you are mistaken. Everything that can be thought of already has – only much of it is lost in history. It is not referring to reincarnation – however, that is another discussion altogether.

So I post today something I dreamed sometime in 2013.  I was recovering from two major spinal surgeries, so my dreams and my writing exploded.  I couldn’t do much else at that point.  But most of the things I wrote were just filed in a “writing” folder – with the intention of completing them at some point.

My mind was imploding we thoughts and feelings, and in that situation, if I had not written them down I might have blown at any moment!  As I shuffled through the file this morning I found this dream that I  experienced.

I say “experienced” because if you have read any of my prior dreams posted you would know my dreams are my “other life”.  A life I remember, and actually often can close my eyes and begin again at the same place!

So here it is :

DEVIL JUICE

The devils come out to play at night,

You must usher them gone in the light.

Inescapable, something written in the stars,

Not from Neptune – or Jupiter, – or mars.

Thwart their moves and push their plots away.

In Jesus name you have control

Today and every day.

You know who the devils are.

 

It never occurred to me that I would one day push a little girl off a ragged cliff and send her tumbling down into a rapidly flowing river. I had to do it. She was going invaded and consumed by satan.

It all began after the irreversible vaporization of much of the common population. No one knew if they were next. The thought police had begun the task years before, but the commons were transfixed with self and possessions. They hadn’t a clue they were already doomed. It began in mid century of the twenty third century. The Watchers knew as they listened past the inconsequential affair the commons seemed to have with the Leaders. Some thought it was impossible not to be caught up in the faces and folly they professed to the Commons. Watchers knew differently.

Dwellings still had the appearance of when they were all free, but we knew. We knew we were being scouted and appraised every moment of the day. We knew we could be plucked from our lives as easily as one plucked a petal off of a flower – in the day – when flowers were fragrant and followed the natural way to death and rebirth.

My days had been filled with Addison. Thoughts of rolling over and over with him in the sand, hot on our bare bodies, took over any sense that remained in my intellect.

If I wasn’t in the midst of remembering torrent love making, I was planning on our next encounter with thought, and thinking of our last.

When the three women moved into the stack below us, a chill ran across my back.

It wasn’t their appearances or demeanor, but something from within my gut told me these women were more than trouble; they were possessed.

Demons found it easy to disguise and enter a pure soul. There were still many hiding. People had been deceived for so long, the Quiet People found it necessary to begin to hide in more unusual ways. All a demon- plagued humans needed to do was offer a drink of devil juice, and gently nestle into the pure spirit from within each person. Once the spirit was diminished it was easy to guide these persons into a corrupt morality and vision. Once activated in a person, it was then his or her thought could find a no way to recover from the loss. Of course evil was still in control of most of the people of the planet and even those untouched were forced to go into hiding – at least their true knowledge.

It took re-education to train the untouchable ones. Thought police were everywhere and also were easily disguised. Untouchable ones were forced to stay in the hollows most hours of the day. The longer they remained in the Light from the Light, the stronger they became and the more resistant to tamper and experiment with “the juice”

There were ways to connect, but always with caution. Addison and I had known each other before the day of vaporization. We had a small circle of friends who were able to manifest the hollow mode and enter the hollows until they were certain those new were cleared.

No one Quiet people drank any form of devil juice. Thought police were aware of this and so it was urgent that they maintain neutral and hollow positions now, for most of the time. Night was of specific danger as the pathway to destruction widened and anyone who wanted to drink was able to get it for free. Laws regarding age limits, and any limits on the juice that had been active for years, were disregarded as soon as the earth turned to the point of darkness.

For that time it was best for all untouchable ones to lock themselves in their stack and simply withdraw until dawn. It was as easy as that, and as difficult. The temptation was always there as the noise of the night was not monitored or curbed in any way. The only way to close out the outer world was to play loud music – which of course -all untouchable ones did.

Addison and I did not live together. He had been discovered dead five years earlier, however, the death was planned and though I was not aware of it, he actually survived in the hollows without contacting me until a few months ago.

I opened my eyes sitting up.