Posts Tagged ‘trees’

The Road Ahead

March 3, 2016

My life is like a continually changing convergence of forms, a kaleidoscope of ever moving- breathing- me.   On the outside I have softened to a sweet and tender place.  Yet inside I am like the hard seed in a cherry or a plumb, unable and unwilling to succumb to being eaten by this world. God placed the seed and it is in my heart until my last breath. I choose to acknowledge it and with intellect allowed my feet to be directed to my futures.

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I have never traveled on this road before.  Upward and onward. As I close my eyes, for a moment I feel the warmth of the sun on my back.  I’ve seen this road before…many times at dusk before the dark envelops the earth. Before I close my eyes to let my body regenerate and rest.

A dirt road as wide as a couple holding hands, and in view as far as the eye can see.  On each side of the road trees, the trees are all tall and green, and as thick as the thickest hedge in England.

The trees change but the road never does.  There have always been trees, and the sound of leaves bristling against one another when a murmur of a breeze makes its way between leaves.

I know there is sound, and yet I never hear it.  I hear only quiet and my bare feet shuffling the fine dirt on the road.

There is no end to the road, and the light is always before me. Sometimes it seems as if I am still and the road and trees are moving past me.  I have never been afraid here.

The road before me is changing, ever changing.

I have never traveled on this road before.  I notice the trees grow barren and leaves begin to fall and drift in the breeze.  As branches become visible and the leaves deep on the road I see how the branches twist and turn, always reaching for the light.

I shuffle my feet through the mounds of leaves built from wind plucking them from the trees and blowing just far enough for them to weave through each other and finally stack one upon the other.

I love the crackling of leaves as I march picking my legs high so I can come down on leaves and hear the rustle of them breaking into smaller and finer pieces.

The birds now silenced, have gone to another spring.  Everything is still and the quiet permeates me until from I hear the leaves behind me lift and drop with the spring of the dog that has always been with me.

I think angels come in different forms to protect and watch over us.  I felt the wet nose hit the back of my leg as my angel skidded from running to catch up, to a complete stop just behind me.  It was a butterfly that slowed his march with me, and a quick roll in the leaves, just for fun.

The warmth of the sun has diminished now but the brightness of it makes me lower my head just a bit.  It sits before me and once again the earth turns beneath my feet and the trees whisk behind me.  The ride increases in speed as I stand solidly hoping it slows for me, just a bit.  I love the road and looking far a head until it vanishes and there is just the vertical line I see.

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It is evening.  Mountains lie before me, and a rainbow burst between the clouds and settles in my vision .  I am not afraid, but I am not ready to go further just quite yet.  I will settle in near the skeleton of the big old oak and my puppy curled tightly next to me.  The Son will come.  I know it.  I will be ready.

Autumn – A season of color!

October 28, 2015
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The Tree

August 8, 2012

It’s strange what may trigger a thought or a memory.  This morning I am saying good-bye to an old friend, a tree.   During the heat of the summer this tree offered me shade and kept me cooler, every single day.

As fall came, the leaves shimmered and shook the rain off of its leaves, while glistening in the occasional burst of sun.

I remember the sound of the leaves blowing in the wind, again shimmering with each movement.   I will miss this friend, but the time has come for it to be taken down.  The roots are rotting and the tree leans more every day towards the heat of the sun in the afternoons.

Soon, I am afraid, if it were not cut down, it could fall and perhaps hurt a passerby.

 

 

So this morning I await the tree cutters.  I have already sat on the porch and looked at it

for a time.  I took photos, and will remember “the good times”.  But it has to go now.

I have other trees planted that will support my breath, and provide so much joy and cover me in times I need refuge.  I know other trees will come to me, by the wind and seed, or because I know the importance of keeping greenery in our lives.  I am grateful for these green beauties.

After pondering all this, it came to me, that the life of this tree rather resembles my own.

There is a time for all things, and some things may be beautiful and enhance my life.  I treasure those things.  But there is also a time for letting go – a time to say good-bye to the natural loss of loved ones, and also the loss of those whose presence in our lives have changed.

What may have been good, even great, at one time, may be totally changed today.  I have been forced, in my life, to “get rid of that which is harmful to me” and my loved ones – whether it be a person, a habit, or even a change in environment and friends.

Though these changes can bring fear to the forefront, sometimes they MUST BE MADE….to refine the quality of your life, to protect your safety, to bring in the new.

Those times I often fell to my knees and ask God to direct my path.  He has never

left those that ask for help and “keep the faith”.  Our Father wants to be alive within us.

Dash the fear.  Ninety percent of what we dread actually never comes to fruition, so if you need to make a change, remember, THIS IS YOUR LIFE and no one expects you to forge through it in misery and fear, particularly if you are able to muster up your courage, and take a step forward.

I did it MANY times, in MANY scenarios, and I am here to encourage you and love you and say, YOU CAN DO IT!  Don’t forget the power of prayer.   EVEN if you don’t know it’s power – what harm can come to you by trying it.  Try it more than once – try it often.

Going outside your own mind, even in just the thought of prayer, will begin to empower you.

I really care.  I had no idea this post would take this turn, but it must be for a reason.

Create a wonderful LIFE for you and your loved ones.  Snub your nose at fear.  Mama always said, “If you can look at the worst scenario and figure out a way to deal with that, you can do anything.”  I did.  I believe you can.