Posts Tagged ‘truth’

A Dream

February 8, 2018

I had a dream, and then another and another – night after night, month after month, year after year. Years turned to decades and I found myself dreaming, still.

Life changed the dreams from beautiful flights of fancy to tears sometimes. Everything in my waking hours turned to dreams. All memories bound together by darkness and restless eyes.

Dreams turned to acknowledgements, wisdom, wishes and the still hope lay in the path to fly again. I saw the future of the core of humans still aspiring, and of those who lost their way. I saw minds turn to stone and move like robots over the dying planet.

I had a dream. All the youthful errors were brought to light and the heart of my heart shone above all others on the browning planet. He was stable and like a rock. He was true, and I was his child and Spiritual friend. All others dissipated like fog in late morning.

I was old and disabled. I passed by a woman who scowled and resented everything. I told her to try to smile. I told her it would make all easier and love would come to her.

I watched young and robust and healthy young woman pivot and turn, with grace and ease. I cried for the exchange of freedom in movement to truth coming. I knew.

I dreamed of the multilevel domes they called stacks. I could see everything outside from within.
Across the glass bridge, everything was transparent and I ran and skipped across it and back to the dome.

Within the confines, which felt limitless, I found myself turning like the tiny ballerina on the music box, again and again I moved with the music in my mind. I spun around the top level of the dome, never faltering, never less than steady. When I stopped I looked at the sky outside and knew I would fly again soon.

“If I could just remember how”, I thought. “I would gently lift, and with my head tilted towards the sky I would put my arms back beside my body. then back further, with fingers together and hands relaxed, still parallel to my body, but behind it now, I would pick up speed and gentle altitude – between the old buildings, now higher in the sky.
Above the empty cities, turning with arms out to my side, above the mountains, above where the green and blue once joined in gentle landscape.”

I remember once I lifted and rose and left the earth.  I flew over the pasture.  I looked down and I was above the goats and cows, and the small farmhouse.  I could smell the fresh green grass and hear the creek below.  I could feel the breeze.  I don’t remember how I came back to my body, but there I lay, still awake in the bed. I listened to the barking of dogs. There were no drugs, no alcohol, yet I had, while fully awake, tasted freedom –  from a time I was restricted to bed to heal from injuries when I had been hit in my car.  I think it was a gift to still my restless heart and strengthen my faith.

I knew I would someday remember again. I was there already within my mind. I flew over small institution cubes where the workers could be monitored, and the core of the common man now lived. Everything had changed. I could see it was near the time.

I lived my life and learned all of it. I did not choose an easy end. I fulfilled my time with grace and still a soft heart.

I awoke and was glad my dreams had finally left me. For so many years in waking hours my mind lived in both the awake world and the dream world. I could not forget either.
But I was meant to learn my lessons and I was tenacious and hungry still for adventure.

I slept and dreamed. I awoke and the light was brilliant. I had seen so many faces in the walls, and floors. I could not be alone and awake, and daydream for a moment that the faces of multitudes did not appear to me.

I was glad to forsake my day on planet earth. I was glad to give up the freedom and treacheries of my dreams. I was glad to be without form in Spirit alone. I knew I was dead. I was finally “as it should be”; as it will be for all – as it is destined to be.

The sky was blue. The stars were really diamonds shining in rainbows of colors, and I could rest and bounce from cloud to cloud. I saw Spirits that had left me. I knew there were Spirits to come. I saw the Man of Sacrifice and Love, and He was the light, and His father still watched over it all. I knew it had been worth it all and I could not recall the time of pain and suffering.

I felt snuggled in love, embraced with truth. I could fly again. Home at last.

I awoke.

Exposed – Brad and Angelina

January 29, 2018

For anyone who may have thought this post might have been about someone being naked, or caught in “a situation” – SORRY!  Also, I just used Brad and Angelina’s names to get your attention!  They aren’t mentioned in the post, so if it is only them you are looking for, best stop reading and move on…and have a great day!

This is a wholesome post with some old wives tales exposed, and other things too! By the way, if you question if I am an old wife, I’ve been married 30 years – does that count?


A hearty breakfast of sausage (or bacon), eggs, and buttered toast will help your husband prepare for the day – whether is work is physical or mental or both!

A lie. That is probably what is clogging your husbands arteries and may, indeed, cause him a fatal heart attack in the future.
All millennials are not spoiled, self-fish, thoughtless and shallow brats.

A lie. There are many “quieter” millennials who have all the qualities of an adult child you would work and hope for in their futures. Once again the media has shed bias and light on those millennials who are not full of hope – but seem rather hopeless. Remember: there is always hope.
If you let a dog lick your wound, it will help to heal it because their saliva and tongue have healing properties.

Sorry, not true. There are no healing properties in letting the dog lick you – unless you like it and you feel deep down, it may help. What helps is the sedative like feeling you get when something loves you unconditionally, and would do anything for you…like lick a wound.
If you dump grease down the sink you should run hot water.

A lie. Run cold water so the grease will not clog the pipes. If you run hot water and fail to get all the grease down, when it cools – it clogs.
If you are a Christian you automatically forgive someone if they have done something terrible to a member of your family and/or friend.

A fallacy. Christians have the same protective nature all humans do….they are “supposed” to forgive – but often it takes a lengthy period of time to do so. Sometimes forgiving is impossible. That does not mean they aren’t Christians. It means they are human. God knows hearts.
If you are using a recipe that calls for buttermilk, and you don’t have any, you can use vinegar in the milk instead. Not a lot, 1/2 – 1 tablespoon.

If you are out of toothpaste you can brush your teeth with baking soda.

True. It works. Kind of tastes nasty but its better than hemorrhoid cream. DON’T ASK.
If you don’t have shampoo or are short on time, use corn starch to clean your hair.

True. Just drop pour on top, then bend down and pour more. In that position rub it through you hair as if it was water. Then shake it out and brush. (Of course be over something that catches the corn starch that falls…like a sink, outside, or standing on newspapers.
You can use make-up and vitamins longer than the label says you can.

True. When you think you are done with a product, open it and pour it into a container wherein you can still use it. When corporations tell you not to use it – that is a ploy so you will trash it and buy more. As far as vitamins – if they are hard pills they are fine. If they are fluid or in a capsule that melts in your mouth, test one. SMELL what is inside. Your nose will tell you what to do.

If you think you will have a wonderful day, barring a catastrophe, you will!

TRUE. The day is in your mind. No matter what happens to you, your response is 100% your choice. In hard times there are lessons to be learned. That does not mean you need to be miserable. As ye thinketh, so shall ye be….CREATE A WONDERFUL DAY! Love one another!


January 25, 2018

Here is a thought on understanding. No one person has more pain than another. We all suffer in this life-time. Mental anguish, physical pain, both can be staggering, and both can disable a person.

Try as you may,  you will never be able to get directly into the mind of someone else, and have the same trials that they may face. We are all human, yet we are all different. We need to join together in understanding each person handles pain differently.

Some people can tolerate pain better than others, and some people may have no knowledge of the power we have within our minds to bear the burden and help heal our own pain.

Some pain will never diminish completely, and therefore we must adapt, we must use our wits about us to find acceptance and a way to handle it.

After all we are the ONLY one who knows our suffering aside from God. He will always help you to find a way to grow beyond your limitations, and still become that wonderful person from within.

Pray. Think in terms of “I am healing”, “I am doing the best I can”, “I can handle whatever happens”, and so forth. My mama gave me a great reason to keep going.  She said, “I must be strong for my children and my grandchildren.  I will make them proud of me, and prepare them for what may come.” She showed me by carrying herself with the strength of a mighty warrior, and rarely complaining.

Breathe. Think about your breathing and use this gift. You will create energy and relax simultaneously.  You will create pain medication from within, and will find, with practice,  you are able to divert your own attention from the pain, even perhaps, helping someone else who may be suffering.

Remember when you see someone with a weakened body, or injured, give their mind another reason to try….share a smile with them. Talk to them. Understand they may be struggling.  For as you give… SHALL receive.!  Create a day worthwhile with love and understanding.

Take a breath slowly in through the nose. Hold it. Visualize it helping you, and now exhale through the mouth slowly, visualizing pain and negativity dissipating as you exhale. Repeat this often. When you feel overwhelmed – breathe! Share the knowledge with someone and you will reap the rewards as well.

You are loved!


January 21, 2018

Totally believe we have choice one hundred percent of the time. “The best anesthesia against pain is your mental power. If you identify yourself more with God and less with the body.”..……You can survive anything and be happy!

“Be mentally apart from pain; develop more strength of mind. Be tough within. When you are feeling pain, inwardly say to yourself, “It doesn’t hurt me.” When a hurt comes, recognize it as something to be cared for, but don’t suffer over it.”

We can help heal our bodies with the power of our minds.  We will find peace beyond understanding if we fill that empty space in our hearts with God.

We need to remember to have FUN and really take time to LIVE!

Time is of the essence.   Fill the air with love and don’t forget to listen and watch…miracles are all around us if we just open our hearts and eyes.

You may think what is happening in the world is terrible and out of control. It may APPEAR you have no choices. You ALWAYS HAVE THE CHOICE of how to react to what happens in your corner of the world. Do the best you can in “your” world, remember to love and forgive, and be honorable in your actions.

One word, one deed, one moment could make a change in someones life and then the domino effect begins….one human, one heart at a time.

California – “Say what?”

January 18, 2018

I read the that the state has 19 billion in reserves . Also 11 billion in a “rainy day fund”…”that is ASSUMING…..lawmakers -“Could” spend 7.5 billion of the surplus, and part will “PROBABLY” go to schools.

The words assuming, could, and probably make me just a tad nervous! I tried for two days to find who does the checks and balances on the government reporting, but to no avail.

Also saw on news yesterday the “projected” (another sketchy word) in the first part of the bullet train – which no citizen voted nay or yea on – has gone up 35% to 10.6 billion. Total cost “estimated” at 67 billion dollars.

Didn’t mention how it is being paid for; I can only assume the 2nd increase in vehicles at the DMV is part, along with property tax increase and such…but even with ALL the monies Ca. has, there is still a huge shortage to reach 67 billion dollars.

The governor’s budget summary – 2018-2019 looks vastly different than anything I have read before. For the governor being so verbally environmentally enthusiastic, the numbers in these
Charts do not reflect it. What they do show is revenues and transfers are huge ,which in actuality lays the burden on TAX paying citizens….some of the highest in the nation! (

45% of Americans pay no federal income tax

Who pays income taxes in California?

…..”it is actually California’s low-income families who pay the largest share of their incomes in state and local taxes….”


Jan. 30, 2017. “2.3 million illegal immigrants in Ca.”
“Cost per year ranges to $135. Billion in one year – public funds! (2016)
Some illegals do pay income tax, but only totally to about 11.5 million dollars.

All in all it was a disappointing day of trying to verify facts, though I spent hours, and went to multiple sources to derive information. I admit I drifted from one subject to another, just a tad. 🙂

Liberal, conservative or there is truly an answer to please whatever it is you support!

Don’t worry too much. Not a helluva lot we can do. Although I would love to see Ca. Roads get some attention. Not everyone will be able to ride the bullet train! Kind of makes me vomit in my mouth a bit when I write about it.

Movie Reviews

January 9, 2018

I began this post simply to remind all of us that the things we see and hear, AFFECT our brains, our thoughts and actions.  Young minds need to be fed the best of the best….particularly in this day and age.  Don’t fall into the pit allowing these minds to just watch whatever is on television or the computer.  You wouldn’t hire a babysitter that had the characteristics of some of the people in hollyweird’s productions.  Don’t allow garbage to be fed to anyone in the family.


“Brimstone”- brutal, sadistic, child abuse, rape, sexual abuse of women and children. The man was representing a preacher, thusly giving bad vibes to religion – physical violence – tongues removed, hangings, cruelty, prostitution, murderer incest-obsessed pervert associating violence with sex. Released this year. Denmark origin, “western- horror”…..2 1/2 hours of unrelenting…..CRAP you wouldn’t feed to a pig!

“Jungle” – an exciting true adventure of surviving the Bolivian jungle alone. The cast will be unknown to you, as it was to us, but it held my husband and my attention the entire time. I would recommend this for almost everyone that is thirteen or older.

“Temple Grandin” – Claire Dane is an amazing actress portraying a young woman with autism.
This is an HBO movie, and one we happened upon accidentally. It is a surprisingly heart-warming true story, and opens a door to a bit of knowledge about the subject of autism. Kept our attention and opened our eyes to the struggles of a mother of an autistic child, and the success this child earned.


December 9, 2017

Because of all the confusing and some inaccurate information about Israel and Jerusalem  I felt I must brush the story. I do remember clearly my grandma and my mama talking about the subject of Israel and Jerusalem, and reading about it over a lifetime…and all the trauma surrounding it, I spent an inordinate amount of time the past week or so, re-affirming what rang in my head as facts and fallacy.
The results of this search has NOTHING to do with whom you like in the political realm, and whom you dislike. It has to do with accurate history.
Jerusalem was historically the capital of Israel for almost 3,000. In 1946 the newly formed United Nations (eleven men specifically) designated new borderlines and areas for Israel and the people of Palestine. Israel was NOT happy about this decision. The countries bristled with anger and contempt against one another.
In 1967 there was a six day war between Egypt, Jordan and Syria – and Israel. Israel had a decisive victory over the Arabs. I had to dig a bit to get good information, as the Arab countries were quite humiliated over this loss.
During the past decades, at least 4 United States presidents have promised to recognize Jerusalem as capital of Israel..none did it until Trump kept his promise. They were George Bush, Bill Clinton, and barack obama.

Clinton is seen in 1992 saying, “Jerusalem is still the capital of Israel and must remain an undivided city accessible to all.”

Bush is seen in 2000. “As soon as I take office, I will move the United States ambassador to the city Israel has chosen as its capital,” he says.

Obama is seen in 2008 saying, “I continue to say that Jerusalem will be the capital of Israel. I have said that before and I will say it again.”

So this upheaval against Trump is really not warranted. He is just fulfilling the promise he made when he ran for office – finishing the job promised years ago. Of course the Arab communities are up in arms about it, as they have denied Israel the truth for years.

As I said, I don’t care what anyone’s political stance is. I just think it fair when the truth is told and not a bunch of inaccurate hype.

Just One of Those Days…..

November 29, 2017

P1010010Yesterday was just one of those days you spend more time recovering and working to take care of business when you just want to run away….When you should be paying attention to important things – like playing with the puppy!

Away from all the politics, the news, the dissension between peoples, and all the pain life brings to us over the years. I am going to apologize for yesterday’s post because I read it to my husband last night. He is always interested in what I’ve written. As I read it I realized it was
“scattered” – my writing was not up to what I feel it should be, by now!

My opinions were true, but if I am going to voice opinions I cannot do it when I am upset or in great pain. It besmears my thinking.

I fell again two days ago. Not being able to feel most of my feet when I walk is difficult, and sometimes the remnants of drop foot take over. Basically I fell backwards landed on my left wrist and fanny, then my head fell back and slammed hard into the kitchen cabinets. Actually I put my wrist down to break the fall so I wouldn’t land flat on tile on my back. That could have really damaged an already fused back. It worked – just “tweeked” it a bit.

Still I was in immediate pain (nothing broken), with a radical headache. That night I iced everything and sat still trying to get to a position that didn’t hurt.

God is good. The next morning I was stiff like a board, but ready to roll…the mind is a great healer…as the Bible says, “Physician heal thyself.”

So what I want to say is GOOD MORNING brothers and sisters. Good morning to one and all.
We can only affect those in the circle of our own lives. We cannot turn sour and hard because a few are screaming about everything.

Today I am going to concentrate on all the wonderful and happy things in life. If I start to turn a corner to worry or anger, I am going to stop and take a deep breath or two, and just say “Thank you God – let me begin again this moment. I am going to stay on the straight and narrow of changing the world, one person at a time.

I am going to prioritize my “list” of to do’s and let all the rest be in on the desk waiting for their turn!

Lastly I will say, don’t put your family in harm’s way to “buy, buy, buy”! Black Friday, Cyber Monday, Giving Tuesday, and soon other days dedicated to keeping the people poor while making a few others rich. Be wise. Happy fun and love each other….doesn’t cost a thing!



Sexual Abuse and the bully

November 28, 2017


I don’t give a flying shoe about the hollyweird aspect, or the political scenarios. THIS IS NOT A NEW ISSUE! Sexual advances from most men (not all) have been a part of the world’s problems, since men found their penis and then reached their sexual peak…age eighteen! This is when the testosterone is the highest for most men.

From that point, “its all downhill”. At least that is the physiology of the problem, and the “problem” is overcome by selling pharmaceuticals make billions on enhancing male sexuality.. I think the crux of the problem is the twisted and perverted peak the magazines, television, particularly the internet, has taken many men and women.  Additionally, some men are bullies!

Today, via movies and television, it is presented perfectly normal for a young man and woman to meet, and be attracted, and within hours / or minutes, the couple is pressed up against a wall ripping their clothes off, or jumping in the sack for a short screw (and that is all it is), and then – “bye-bye”.

Sexual relations have been going on since the creation of man, but it seems all the forms of medias, particularly the community of hollyweird, has pushed and endorsed its agenda to make money! Also, if you think about the sexual violence and rapes that are presented to those who use television and or the internet to “relax” after a long day at work, it kind of begins to make sense.  Some people use those medias as actually a representation of learning tools!

The dumbing down of America through technology.  A sad and terrible truism.

Even the Lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender community was pushed by Hollyweird as an agenda that they could show in movies and make money! Follow the money.

This “community” is very tiny community percentage wise. The number of all LGBT humans is 3.8 percent of the population of three hundred million in the USA alone.

This figure may be overestimated. I have done my homework on this. There is a larger percentage of citizens who have “experimented” as opposed to being born this way.

Women lead the bisexual march.  I believe magazines started this trend with the “girl on girl” photos in the late fifties and early sixties. But these folks are NOT members of the real LGBT community…The transgender community is extremely rare.
I am NOT blaming men or women for sexual adventures or misadventures, as it may be. I am blaming (and I wish I could specifically name names) those who are pushing towards a society that neither hones men or women. A society that wants the non-gender attitude, and the careless and casual sex “that doesn’t mean anything” – to blossom.

If there are no solid alliances between men and women, there will be no power except factions of groups who stand together to make noise, but vanish into thin air when the media stops focusing on them. People will only have their “peasant” work to do.  I am one of the peasants.

Even those in the higher financial state will honor and respect nothing except the almighty dollar.

The SEXUAL “State of the Union” is pathetic. Confusion among the peasants keeps them down and working….They (the unnamed) creatures are playing gods, and I believe there will be a quiet majority who will at some point, have had enough-more than enough.

A problem here is that CHILDREN are being taught EVERYTHING is okay!
Children are being primed in pre-school and elementary school, INACCURATE AND MISLEADING “facts” . They are being led down a path they don’t even understand as yet.

They are being molded by a group of people who have lost any sense of moral reckoning. A group that only cares about putting children on life-long drugs, doing life-changing surgeries, and changing the attitude of the upcoming generations to accept everything.

Genders / sexual experiments / etc. are something that children (at these ages) do not fully comprehend. They are being led down a path with molding that can screw up their little lives – forever! They are the innocents, and I am mad!

I kind of drifted from the subject of sexual abuse, but like bullying – sexual abuse (from both genders) has been going on for centuries. I do understand that men are the worst offenders, but it is point blank simply because men are aroused by sights and sounds, and it doesn’t take much…Wherein women may be attracted, and sometimes even hot, we don’t have the “trigger point” men naturally have. That is not an excuse. There is no excuse for taking advantage of a situation to gain sexual favors for a favor in return – job security, etc.

There is NOTHING new under the sun! The difference is instead of women “handling the scenario”, they whine and “arouse” a different kind of situation.

I have been accosted – more than once – I spoke up and eye-ball to eye-ball and confronted the problem! I spoke up more than once, and  when I was unable to resolve the problem, I openly went to management. One time that did not work – I packed up and walked out of my position. I had some positions I loved and did not want to have to quit, but waiting forty years to explode – NO WAY!

In my heart, I think these women are frauds. If they didn’t speak up then, even if fearful, they are cowards to say anything today. Forty years is a lot of time to mature and hopefully mend the evil ways that caused the problem initially.

This hollyweird stuff is garbage. Probably these poor excuses for women didn’t speak up because they got the “perks” they shut their mouths for then…..

Women, DON’T BE AFRAID of the consequences if you are molested in any way. Speak up. Either handle it yourself or tell someone else and get help to handle it! All you are doing by being silent is hurting YOU! Be courageous and be an example for other women and girls.

And women, please remember, you are dealing with men whose sexuality is activated at the sight of a beautiful girl walking by or a low cut blouse. No one deserves to be molested or raped – but you don’t hold out a steak to a dog – unless you want him to jump for it.

Just a note. Bullying is the same thing. The thing about a bully is he either try to incite you with words, or by hitting. Try to walk away, but you may have to punch back! Tell someone right away (who cares if you are a tattle tale)  and take care of the situation immediately.

I knew a coward bully, and he would come up to the back of someone and punch them in the head.  Bullies don’t abide by rules.  Bullies have always been around.

Unless YOU take action, the worst repercussion might be when you are met by the bully again, and wind up hurting from another beating. But if you see him or her coming, fight back!  There are no rules for a bully.

Stand up for yourself no matter if it is sexual abuse, or a bully trying to make himself feel better by being a bully!  Someone has probably been sexually abused that person, and more than likely the bully has been bullied!

TAKE a SELF-DEFENSE class. Ask for help in learning to defend yourself. I am not saying you shouldn’t try to walk away from the problem, but if you don’t TAKE CARE OF LIFE’S IMPORTANT situations, WHEN THEY OCCUR, you will find yourself facing the problem again and again!


Are you a boy? A girl? or a third gender… a “non-binary gender”?

October 24, 2017

We have been “primed” to be tolerant towards those holding “other opinions” regarding personal makeup as a human. “Don’t be a bigot”.

We have been forced to accept that which goes against our own personal beliefs, in the name of understanding. For instance the plight of all homeless and former prisoners. “Its not their faults. They need help.”

If we hesitate to accept the things pushing us together for a different agenda, we are guilted, blamed, punished, condemned and told we think we are better than others!

The governor of California has gone too far this time…at least for me. I try to listen and be open to the stories of those who are lesbian, gay, and transgender. Though I know (I have done the homework) that the percentage of lesbian, gay, and transgender people is minuscule in comparison with the entire population of citizens of the USA….Just a tad over 3.5 % (11,270,000 )in a population of 322 million people! … That leaves 310,999.730 people who are supposed to accommodate the demands of that 3.5%. Really?

Are the rest of us to set aside our time, energy and beliefs to accommodate this? All right, let’s say we try to mind our own business and “accept” the rights of other humans. Fine. But personally, when an owner of a bakery refuses to decorate a wedding cake for two men who are marrying, should he / or she should not be reprimanded? What happened to the business owners rights? What about “I have the right to refuse the use of my business to anyone I choose!” Do not the 332 million people who are sited as “normal” not have any rights any more?

The icing on the cake, so to speak, governor brown, of california, has gone too far this time for me. Along with two liberal senators, one from San Diego, and one from San Francisco (the freak capital of california, he just put through a law stating it is okay now if “someone who does not know if they are man or woman, to put that on a drivers license, or identification- as a non-binary gender.

In otherwords they have “created” a “third gender”. Who in the hell do these people think they are? gods?

There are a VERY RARE FEW cases who have been born with one too many, or one too little of the x or y chromosome. Meaning they TRUly have a physical problem that will require attention in the lives of these people. These cases, let me repeat, are RARE!

They (those who are extreme liberal, rich and powerful) are bending the minds of all who listen and accept this. I call BS. All they are doing is creating total confusion in the minds of young adults, and really in the minds of children. Humans tend to form thoughts from what they see and hear. With media acceptance, and legal acceptance – why it must be true…we have a third gender. (God might have missed this in creating us!). I am appalled!

This is being taught in many pre-schools…if you don’t like being a girl you can be a boy. Acceptance is being taught in schools. The media, some very big liberals in politics, and hollyweird are promoting how this is okay….it’s NOT. Teachers and retail stores are being told no longer call students boys and girls -no longer have separate sections: Call them children. Have no division in children’s clothing.

Moonbeam was a piece of garbage his last “reign” – so was his father before him!.. Really? A third gender? I THINK NOT.

I will not accept a third gender as commonplace. I will not accept training our young people that they can change genders if they like…until 7 or 8 they really don’t understand all the concepts of their physical bodies.

The TRUTH is: Boys have balls and a penis. Girls have breasts and a vagina. I HAVE DONE MY HOMEWORK.  I have read percentages, reports of psychologists, all about genders, etc. etc. etc. The incidence of this happening as I wrote before, is RARE.

God help us all.