Posts Tagged ‘women’

How to Receive Love – Part 2

June 7, 2017

GOOD MORNING. Today I will finish my 10 thoughts on How to Receive Love!

First, please read yesterdays post and the five initial thoughts the the subject. If you ask what makes me such an authority on the subject I will only say I have received so much love over the years sometimes it is stunning to me.

I have also had the worst times a person can endure and been treated at times, quite poorly.. I won’t go into details, but to me, the past IS the past. We can either learn to survive and thrive, or we can live in the past and wither under its powers. That is the beauty of today. It is a new day. It is a NEW LIFE – one to make with what you dream.

Even if commitments are wearing you thin, and challenges have reached the top of the pendulum, keep in mind – at this point, you can choose either direction – drop to the bottom or rise to the top. (If you aren’t sure what a pendulum is – find out! UNDERSTANDING is a key to receiving love.)

These five I will expound upon but in a shorter version (at least I will attempt shorter – I have been called a word meister, although others are far beyond me there, I do consider myself a life meister…

5. Forgive. If you “need” to forgive in a relationship, then do it…forgive and forget. If you can’t forget – you may as well say farewell instead of torturing yourself and someone else.
6. Be understanding of others. There is always a reason for a frown or nasty attitude. The person may be able to be touched with a smile. There are also those who will continue to be nasty no matter what. If you feel that negative or EVIL, do not stick around and think you can change them. Just be grateful to be free and say a prayer for them.
7. Always be polite and thoughtful. Keep conversation ALIVE. Conversation is a key to a great relationship and deep love. In the end, friendship will outlive everything else.
8. Be flexible – accept people for who they are, don’t get involved to change them!
9. Open your heart to receive love. Don’t boil in a pot of fear from past heart aches. That is the past. If you don’t step up and find YOU – you will not gain your confidence. Remember love YOU. You are unique, one of a kind, a creation of God, and each of us has something very special….dig that out and let your life begin again.
10. FIRST AND MOST IMPORTANT YOU MUST GIVE LOVE – real appreciation for each and every human being you come meet. I am NOT talking about sexual love or appetite….if this is to happen, it will. If not, so what! I am saying find something good about each person, some quality or feature that is theirs and let them know honestly and timely, that you appreciate it. Each of us is individual. There is something amazing in each of us….instead of “judging according to what the “media” standards are, or consensus of one group or another….be your own person and allow your judgment to flow in the way of pulling the good towards you and appreciating instead of immediately “seeing” and thinking you know that person.

We all want love. In order to receive love, we must first “love”…love in the sense of all these ten points, add in your own thoughts, and just accept that if you are positive and keep being the best of you, I promise, some time – someone will gravitate towards you and you will know.

Don’t be anxious. JUST BE! DECIDE TODAY IS GOING TO BE THE BEST EVER. Find the smile,HOPE and get going! Give love and it will come back to you…perhaps not at the moment it is given, but I will stake my life on “this return” – far safer than the stock market or the horse races. Just begin to take life not quite so seriously – have fun, insist on it. All the things we worry about really are silly in the LONG run…each moment CAN glow with the light of love if you start it! Start the flow….so easy to love if you allow yourself!

Even if you don’t believe in the Great Spirit, pretend someone is watching you and wants you to succeed…give it your all. (Of course I KNOW in my heart of hearts this Spirit is available to us all, inbuilt and waiting for activation.) I will always acknowledge, the truth for me is Jesus loved us first. He came to us in a gentle Spirit, a human body, and humbled himself to love us all. How could I not acknowledge my truth when I have the opportunity.

Every time I have ever needed an arm to hold on, a shoulder to cry on, someone to kick me in the fanny to start again – a prayer calling for help was sent from me, and all I had to do was let go of worry and trust I am in good hands!

I want you to have love. You may be loved by someone who admires you and you might not even know it. Don’t get SEX mixed up with LOVE. Of course it can be wonderful, but it is NOT love – it is SEX, mating, pheromones, lots of things…it can be called “making love”, however most people that I have known over a lifetime that actually make love – are those who are together for a long time. For them its not “just” sex…it is “making love” and it gets better and better. Practice makes perfect. That’s all I am saying. 🙂

Addendum: Don’t expect a relationship that is to last, a love that is to last, not to be a challenge at times.

Apply these ten thoughts, get in the habit of it, and the challenges at first -will melt like butter into a flow of life. Lastly never forget to give each other space. Respect that. Respect you may be a “couple” but you are still each an individual with thoughts and dreams. Trust it. Inhale a long and slow breath now (do it 🙂 With your exhalation, let jealousy and insecurities of the past fly from you out the fingertips and into oblivion. You’ll be happy you did. It is a new day! CREATE a great one.

I love you, you human being!

GETTING OLDER

March 13, 2017

Whoever coined the phrases “growing old gracefully” and “the golden years” should be strung up on the nearest tree!

I don’t know how you grow old gracefully when your body becomes less agile and your ability to stretch is limited because you are afraid you’ll “snap” like an old rubber band.

I have no idea if those years are golden as my eyesight is not as good as it once was, and the insurance I paid into all my life doesn’t cover glasses or teeth (and those are the first things to go!) That’s Medicare of course.

Somehow in my education I didn’t realize-but you’d better- over a hundred dollars will be deducted for part B, before you even get social security. Then of course you have to pay for a supplement each month because Medicare doesn’t cover everything. The tricky part is if Medicare won’t cover any part of a procedure; neither will the supplement you are paying for -to the tune of over $150. a month ( and that is considered cheap if you can find one for that low price.) However, if you break your back (like I did) a good plan will keep you from loosing everything because there will be no cost to you except the monthly payment.

By the way, once you apply for Medicare you get a non-stop snail mail box full of “life insurance applications for your family to have, and burial insurance so they won’t suffer from the cost when you croak. I mean it is non-stop. Thanks for reminding my life of this planet will soon be over. Didn’t have enough to think about!

I plan to be “taken care of” the cheapest way possible. – Burn baby burn. I won’t take up precious space on this planet to plant my body and have people come there to tearfully remember me. I would rather plant flowers there! Also, in my world to come, I trust God will know how to fix everything my poor body has suffered in this lifetime.

After so many years the body just starts to kind of give out, and you never know when or where it will happen. After the first injury or accident then everyone is afraid to let you do anything because you may fall again. (For me, specifically, my broken back). I don’t know if that’s because they worry about you, or because they don’t want to have to take care of you again….

No worries. I swear you’ll never hear “I’ve fallen and I can’t get up” come from my mouth! Older people are usually spoken of as the butt of jokes. The ironic thing is one day those folks will be the butt of the jokes-for now they are just butts!

Heaven forbid you want to do something really fun — “It’s not a good idea.” “It’s too dangerous”. If I weren’t happily married I’d go out and have unprotected sex just for the danger factor. (NOT REALLY)

“It’s not a good idea to go barefooted.” “You’d better not get a dog.” “Watch what you eat.” “Etc, etc. etc.

Kill me now.

If you find you have to use a walker, you will also discover the most humbling time of your life. We take walking for granted, like breathing, until we can’t. Never take one of these gifts for granted. But if you wind up on a walker, be grateful for it, and make sure you have a phone attached, and a basket so you can function at least minimally!

When you find you need to use a cane because some uncaring medical people left you out in the cold until you are in permanent disrepair, don’t worry about accidentally forgetting it…everyone will remind you that you need to take the cane.

The baggers at the grocery store begin to call you ma’am, and ask if you need help carrying one bag to the car. Don’t be foolish, take the help and save your energy for fun. Besides you will have conversations with many people who help you, and sometimes be grateful for the communication. Teenagers look at you like you have already died, and of course lost your mind way before that!

When you hear a whistle you know it’s just some older person grasping at the talent of whistling. “Whistling” – a talent once appreciated – long ago!. You know it’s not a “whistle” meant for you because you are so sexy and have such a stunning figure. I still am cute as a button though. I keep reminding my husband of that, planting a gentle seed.

Everything drops. What they don’t tell you if your feet get bigger too, and all the hair that used to grow on your legs just grows on your face now!

I don’t feel guilty about not being Martha Stewart in the housekeeping department, I will go outside and sit in the sun (still with book in hand) and read to my heart’s content. With my glasses off my home is perfectly dust free. With your husbands glasses off your wrinkles will hardly be noticeable.

What is “grandma in a box”? Well it’s not a coffin I’ll tell you that! I was going to wrap me in a box in birthday paper and surprise my granddaughter for her birthday. With my luck I probably would have suffocated and surprised her with grandma falling to the floor dead! Not a good surprise. Either that or be so stiff I would be permanently unable to move from being stuffed in the box.

When you turn 65 – face it – you may still feel 45 in your mind – but the REAL prejudice is against those of us who live long enough to be known as “the old folks, old people, our elderly, the over the hill gang, seniors (say isn’t a senior in high school or college someone to be looked up to and revered?)

I could write a book about it all, but just to let you know – my wits are about me! My memory is as sharp as ever. I am still the captain of my ship and God the Master of my mind. I really am still “too sexy for my shirt”, and my cane doubles as a weapon so that if anyone pulls any crap on me I can beat them to death with it – and I wouldn’t hesitate.

I don’t hold back and just “be nice” – IF someone deserves to be told off I will do it with wit and class – but I will do it. I don’t hold anything inside. I dress exactly the way I want to, and love the freedom.

When no one is looking (ha ha) I will do what I damn please and take any risk I opt to…why not? There isn’t too much I haven’t done in my life (a lot I wish I hadn’t done), and what the heck is the difference. It could kill me?

No one knows when they are through with being on this earth – at best my life is less than two decades, and so if you see me flying through the air with some young stud attached to my back, don’t be surprised!

I probably will be holding tight to my husband, whom I still adore, sitting behind him on his Harley, going a 100 miles an -hour down some back road!

Life doesn’t have to be over just because you have aged like a fine, fine wine! Or better yet in my case, an aged bottle of good whiskey! One that gives warmth to your innards, and a glow on your cheeks.

Keep your sense of humor. If you’ve lost it, find it and right away before you forget what you are looking for…..and smile!

Tips for a Great Day!

February 24, 2017

These are a few of my favorite things anyone has said to me in my entire life. I have tried to base my actions and my days on these things.

Someone once told me I have the faint cracklings of a healer. I loved that. I would love to heal everything – people, scenarios, reasons for war and discontent, communication between people. I cannot of course – but I can keep trying.

My daughter told me once that I channel what I believe…I channel God. Now I know I have not always, for sure, been a true reflection, but it surely inspired me.

I was told that my presence at that particular time, to that particular person was that of an angel. I have been told that several times, and I loved that to aspire to…Wasn’t that lovely? Of course I know I am not – but I fly in my dreams – and I know I could in this life, if I could just remember how!

My son told me he was sorry for all the times he had been mean to me. I was shocked. I never thought a thing of it because we all have our “growth” spurts, and love is unconditional and forever. He said he guessed he was because all through his life I had always been there – in the good times, and in the very bad times. It touched my heart though love never runs away because of fear or distress.

More than once people have said, “I like your smile. It made me smile.” Cool. Less wrinkles to smile, more fun.

I have had a full life thus far, and though most of it is behind me, I look forward to seeing what is next. I want me to be my best ever. I have learned from a thousand mistakes and poor choices, and from that which was not even my fault.

I prayed for guidance last night and woke up to write. I allow myself an hour to pray, read and write upon waking. It is a delicious time.

I could tell you so many terrible things I remember in my lifetime, but the thing about being human is that if we focus on the GOOD – look upward and move onward – and LEARN, we will blossom like a flower. I’d rather be a flower than a prickly cactus. Smiling is so much easier.

Do something for someone today (something little or big) and don’t tell a soul! It will be tempting to talk about it, but it is so much more exhilarating to have the deed between you and whomever you believe as a creator. The Creator watches.

If you don’t believe in a higher power, then silently think about the deed and be proud of your choice, amidst all the tension and delusion that is happening around the world. It will bring a smile to your face sometime-probably more than once. It’s good to share love.

And if you think of the horrible days and comments made to you, then STOP IT. That was then. You can’t take anything back, so pass the good forward.

This is now. On your mark….get set….go!

 

 

Today

February 23, 2017

I woke up exceptionally early this morning. I lay in bed thinking. I thought about prayers. I thought about God. I thought about my life, and how much of it I’ve missed!

Really. I feel like it has slipped through my fingers like a palm full of oil when you open your fingers….drip, drip, drip away. My back ached (it always does, but that is the way it is) – when I fell, landing on my back, I knew I was in trouble. I just didn’t know how much.

My Rottie came over and sat next to me and I instinctively reached up and felt the lush soft fur just below her neck.

I looked at the blue sky, dotted with those clouds that form into something when you watch them pass. I had just been thanking God for everything in my life being calm and peaceful, and close to perfect. Then wouldn’t you know it, life took me on a turn I shall not forget, though after four years of challenges (and I mean hell sometimes), I sit here typing another piece of my heart.

“Everything changes”, mama used to say. “Everything except God and my love for you.”
I knew she meant it.

We can criticize others. Blame circumstances on conditions, and punish ourselves for making so many mistakes along the way. But isn’t there enough of that going on?

Oh God, I want to be of value, of service to you. We are all human as you are well aware, and
for US, I ask you remain faithful in your patience and grace. I still can’t figure out why I have been given so many opportunities to “rise above my circumstances, and survive!”

We are small little human beings in a maze of life. The majority of us, I still believe, still having love, potential, and goodness.

Guide our thoughts and deeds. Perhaps you give us a jolt a time or two to recognize how little time we have and really how very much power we have in just a word or deed.

My mouth has been filthy at times in my life (not as bad as Ashley Judd – her mama must be proud) – and sometimes my actions less than acceptable. I know that. I also know because I believe in you and your Son Jesus Christ, I am forgiven! I am loved. Jesus took the brunt of my deeds and paid the price. I never take that for granted.

Please keep vigilant over your children and give us a push in the right direction when we are overcome by the trash with the loudest voices. We do not have to succumb.

My husband readies himself to leave and devote his time and health and energy to keeping us “floating” above debt and despair. God bless ALL who must leave their families to provide for them.

Please guide us, your creations, to kind words and at least one thoughtful and unexpected act of love today. We don’t need to tell anyone….just do something. THANK YOU. I stand on my small bandwagon to declare my love for you, and the POWER and ENDLESS energy to heal and keeping going……if only we ask and believe.

IMPORTANT

November 15, 2016

I THINK WE SHOULD BE discussing this! This is important enough for all Californian and nearby states to pay attention to for your families and children. This prop just passed. It is entitled:

“ Proposition 57 Public Safety & Rehabilitation Act of 2016.”……………………………………………………………………………..

(Sounds good, however, we all need to read “the fine print” on this one!)

“Things like use of a date rape drug, physical child abuse, spousal abuse, those are not consider a serious and violent crime,”

Susan Fisher, former chair of the parole board (and sister of a murder victim)

10’s of thousands WILL BE RELEASED.

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“In California, the following crimes are not technically considered “violent,” so therefore, qualify as “non-serious, non-violent offense” eligible for early release in Governor Brown’s Proposition 57….

(I am listing only a few in each category. For full list see reference below.)

Terrorism-related crimes – Exploding or attempting to explode a destruction device in a specified place (e.g. health facility, place of worship, bookstore, library, courthouse,……

Possession of a restricted, biological agent.

Mingling Poison or harmful substance with any food, drink, or medicine, or placing a poison or harmful substance in a spring, well, or water supply.

Domestic Violence crimesDomestic violence resulting in traumatic condition.

Violating restraining order that involves credible threat of violence.

Stalking when defendant has prior felony conviction for domestic violence.

Elder/Dependent Adult abuse – False imprisonment of an elder or dependent adult by violence, menace, fraud or deceit.

Inflicting physical pain or mental suffering on an elder or dependent adult..

Caretaker committing theft, embezzlement, forgery, fraud or identity theft against an elder.

Gang Related Crimes – Active participation in a criminal street gang.

Carrying a loaded firearm or in a vehicle where the defendant has a prior felony conviction….etc.

Violating restrained order that involved credible threat of violence.

Making a credible threat to cause serious bodily injury and within 30 days entering the victim’s residence or workplace with intent to carry out the threat.

The state will save hundreds of millions on this passing. However many others not listed will be eligible under this prop. Included is rape to an unconscious victim, corporal punishment to a child, human traffic/ sex acts with minor, drive by shooting hate crimes, rape by intoxication – ETC. ETC.

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Lock and load…or do whatever it is you do to keep your family safe. The last group of early releases look like a group of babies in comparison to what is going to happen…..

 

 

 

 

 

 

(Reference:   www.klaaskids.org/blog/?p=2509)

I THINK WE SHOULD BE discussing this! This is important enough for all Californian and nearby states to pay attention to for your families and children. This prop just passed. It is entitled:

 

 

“ Proposition 57 Public Safety & Rehabilitation Act of 2016.”

……………………………………………………………………………..

(Sounds good, however, we all need to read “the fine print” on this one!)

 

 

“Things like use of a date rape drug, physical child abuse, spousal abuse, those are not consider a serious and violent crime,”

Susan Fisher, former chair of the parole board (and sister of a murder victim)

 

10’s of thousands WILL BE RELEASED.

—————————————————————————————–

“In California, the following crimes are not technically considered “violent,” so therefore, qualify as “non-serious, non-violent offense” eligible for early release in Governor Brown’s Proposition 57….

 

Terrorism-related crimes – Exploding or attempting to explode a destruction device in a specified place (e.g. health facility, place of worship, bookstore, library, courthouse,……

 

Possession of a restricted, biological agent.

 

Mingling Poison or harmful substance with any food, drink, or medicine, or placing a poison or harmful substance in a spring, well, or water supply.

 

 

Domestic Violence crimesDomestic violence resulting in traumatic condition.

 

Violating restraining order that involves credible threat of violence.

 

Stalking when defendant has prior felony conviction for domestic violence.

 

 

Elder/Dependent Adult abuse – False imprisonment of an elder or dependent adult by violence, menace, fraud or deceit.

 

Inflicting physical pain or mental suffering on an elder or dependent adult..

 

Caretaker committing theft, embezzlement, forgery, fraud or identity theft against an elder.

 

 

Gang Related Crimes – Active participation in a criminal street gang.

 

 

Carrying a loaded firearm or in a vehicle where the defendant has a prior felony conviction….etc.

 

Violating restrained order that involved credible threat of violence.

 

Making a credible threat to cause serious bodily injury and within 30 days entering the victim’s residence or workplace with intent to carry out the threat.

 

The state will save hundreds of millions on this passing. However many others not listed will be eligible under this prop. Included is rape to an unconscious victim, corporal punishment to a child, human traffic/ sex acts with minor, drive by shooting hate crimes, rape by intoxication – ETC. ETC.

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Lock and load…..or do whatever it is you do to keep your family safe. The last group of early releases look like a group of babies in comparison to what is going to happen…..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I THINK WE SHOULD BE discussing this! This is important enough for all Californian and nearby states to pay attention to for your families and children. This prop just passed. It is entitled:

 

 

“ Proposition 57 Public Safety & Rehabilitation Act of 2016.”

……………………………………………………………………………..

(Sounds good, however, we all need to read “the fine print” on this one!)

 

 

“Things like use of a date rape drug, physical child abuse, spousal abuse, those are not consider a serious and violent crime,”

Susan Fisher, former chair of the parole board (and sister of a murder victim)

 

10’s of thousands WILL BE RELEASED.

—————————————————————————————–

“In California, the following crimes are not technically considered “violent,” so therefore, qualify as “non-serious, non-violent offense” eligible for early release in Governor Brown’s Proposition 57….

 

Terrorism-related crimes – Exploding or attempting to explode a destruction device in a specified place (e.g. health facility, place of worship, bookstore, library, courthouse,……

 

Possession of a restricted, biological agent.

 

Mingling Poison or harmful substance with any food, drink, or medicine, or placing a poison or harmful substance in a spring, well, or water supply.

 

 

Domestic Violence crimesDomestic violence resulting in traumatic condition.

 

Violating restraining order that involves credible threat of violence.

 

Stalking when defendant has prior felony conviction for domestic violence.

 

 

Elder/Dependent Adult abuse – False imprisonment of an elder or dependent adult by violence, menace, fraud or deceit.

 

Inflicting physical pain or mental suffering on an elder or dependent adult..

 

Caretaker committing theft, embezzlement, forgery, fraud or identity theft against an elder.

 

 

Gang Related Crimes – Active participation in a criminal street gang.

 

 

Carrying a loaded firearm or in a vehicle where the defendant has a prior felony conviction….etc.

 

Violating restrained order that involved credible threat of violence.

 

Making a credible threat to cause serious bodily injury and within 30 days entering the victim’s residence or workplace with intent to carry out the threat.

 

The state will save hundreds of millions on this passing. However many others not listed will be eligible under this prop. Included is rape to an unconscious victim, corporal punishment to a child, human traffic/ sex acts with minor, drive by shooting hate crimes, rape by intoxication – ETC. ETC.

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Lock and load…..or do whatever it is you do to keep your family safe. The last group of early releases look like a group of babies in comparison to what is going to happen…..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Picking up the pieces

September 25, 2016

 

I opened the refrigerator and saw the crystal bowl, as if in slow motion, drop in waves and then hit the floor with a mighty sound of glass splintering and grapes breaking off into all directions.

People use God’s name is so many situations. Thank God it’s cooled down. Thank God no one was hurt. Thank God the storm was less than expected. I often wonder if the name of God is even recognized any more, and if God has become just a phrase to express relief. I wonder if people really mean THANK GOD.

Thank God no splinters flew into the eyes of my puppy, standing off a far, looking as if he had done something wrong. I wondered if he would run off to the “naughty room”, his dog house, as he does when he carries something in his mouth that doesn’t belong there.

No, thank God he stood still and just watched, along with my good old girl, Dakota. Black as the night, wide eyed as children, they just waited for some reaction from me. To their surprise, I laughed. Why not.

My husband says to open any door or cupboard anywhere in the house is like looking for a bomb to explode. This time he was right. No one got cut. The bowl was just a material object, and the only other loss was a bunch of grapes.

I cleaned everything up. Looked at the precarious position of an opened twelve pack of Ginger Ale, I and decided to leave them where they were on the third shelf. Why not live dangerously….

It was so much easier to laugh and smile than to let the current situation overcome my senses and my life. I knew this too would pass.

Now think of politics. Let it go. It is not going to be life-changing to throw away all the moments and days we spend worrying. Let it go, and as it’s been said many times before….

Let it go and let God! The only control we really have is our response to life. I tried being miserable and it sucked. So I gave it up.

Dream

September 19, 2016

I recently saw a movie entitled “Equals” – my husband slept through most of it, though it rang several familiar bells in my head.  It was okay, but just gently interesting and and basically a love story.  It reminded me of a book I had read years and years ago – “1984 (better remembered as “Big Brother).

I actually followed up on that thought and found the director or producer of this filmed had pretty much followed the books theme.  As many current movies do, an older book or movie is picked clean and presented to the multitudes as a “new and spectacular” themed movie.

The Bible says:  “There is nothing new under the sun….” What it means is that anything we experience now has already been experienced and to believe that you have a fresh new idea, way of thinking, activity or anything than you are mistaken. Everything that can be thought of already has – only much of it is lost in history. It is not referring to reincarnation – however, that is another discussion altogether.

So I post today something I dreamed sometime in 2013.  I was recovering from two major spinal surgeries, so my dreams and my writing exploded.  I couldn’t do much else at that point.  But most of the things I wrote were just filed in a “writing” folder – with the intention of completing them at some point.

My mind was imploding we thoughts and feelings, and in that situation, if I had not written them down I might have blown at any moment!  As I shuffled through the file this morning I found this dream that I  experienced.

I say “experienced” because if you have read any of my prior dreams posted you would know my dreams are my “other life”.  A life I remember, and actually often can close my eyes and begin again at the same place!

So here it is :

DEVIL JUICE

The devils come out to play at night,

You must usher them gone in the light.

Inescapable, something written in the stars,

Not from Neptune – or Jupiter, – or mars.

Thwart their moves and push their plots away.

In Jesus name you have control

Today and every day.

You know who the devils are.

 

It never occurred to me that I would one day push a little girl off a ragged cliff and send her tumbling down into a rapidly flowing river. I had to do it. She was going invaded and consumed by satan.

It all began after the irreversible vaporization of much of the common population. No one knew if they were next. The thought police had begun the task years before, but the commons were transfixed with self and possessions. They hadn’t a clue they were already doomed. It began in mid century of the twenty third century. The Watchers knew as they listened past the inconsequential affair the commons seemed to have with the Leaders. Some thought it was impossible not to be caught up in the faces and folly they professed to the Commons. Watchers knew differently.

Dwellings still had the appearance of when they were all free, but we knew. We knew we were being scouted and appraised every moment of the day. We knew we could be plucked from our lives as easily as one plucked a petal off of a flower – in the day – when flowers were fragrant and followed the natural way to death and rebirth.

My days had been filled with Addison. Thoughts of rolling over and over with him in the sand, hot on our bare bodies, took over any sense that remained in my intellect.

If I wasn’t in the midst of remembering torrent love making, I was planning on our next encounter with thought, and thinking of our last.

When the three women moved into the stack below us, a chill ran across my back.

It wasn’t their appearances or demeanor, but something from within my gut told me these women were more than trouble; they were possessed.

Demons found it easy to disguise and enter a pure soul. There were still many hiding. People had been deceived for so long, the Quiet People found it necessary to begin to hide in more unusual ways. All a demon- plagued humans needed to do was offer a drink of devil juice, and gently nestle into the pure spirit from within each person. Once the spirit was diminished it was easy to guide these persons into a corrupt morality and vision. Once activated in a person, it was then his or her thought could find a no way to recover from the loss. Of course evil was still in control of most of the people of the planet and even those untouched were forced to go into hiding – at least their true knowledge.

It took re-education to train the untouchable ones. Thought police were everywhere and also were easily disguised. Untouchable ones were forced to stay in the hollows most hours of the day. The longer they remained in the Light from the Light, the stronger they became and the more resistant to tamper and experiment with “the juice”

There were ways to connect, but always with caution. Addison and I had known each other before the day of vaporization. We had a small circle of friends who were able to manifest the hollow mode and enter the hollows until they were certain those new were cleared.

No one Quiet people drank any form of devil juice. Thought police were aware of this and so it was urgent that they maintain neutral and hollow positions now, for most of the time. Night was of specific danger as the pathway to destruction widened and anyone who wanted to drink was able to get it for free. Laws regarding age limits, and any limits on the juice that had been active for years, were disregarded as soon as the earth turned to the point of darkness.

For that time it was best for all untouchable ones to lock themselves in their stack and simply withdraw until dawn. It was as easy as that, and as difficult. The temptation was always there as the noise of the night was not monitored or curbed in any way. The only way to close out the outer world was to play loud music – which of course -all untouchable ones did.

Addison and I did not live together. He had been discovered dead five years earlier, however, the death was planned and though I was not aware of it, he actually survived in the hollows without contacting me until a few months ago.

I opened my eyes sitting up.

 

 

 

Invisible Injuries

September 15, 2016

We all have them.  Whether they be mental or physical, they all come with the territory of being human.

No visual example of adversity. No example of individual interior adversity – mentally or physically!

The difficult part is NO ONE on planet earth can fully understand what YOU personally may be tackling as far as these unseen or unknown challenges.  No one will ever know one hundred percent.

This is why in order to succeed in life, we must attend to our own “healing” of mind-body-and spirit, and we must forgive those who don’t GET where we are coming from.

It may be the depths of hell to us, but not even within the view of others understanding.

The reason I lay all of this on US is because I am going through those invisible injuries.

I have had a pile of them all my life (off and on) – WE ALL DO.  They are all different and all in different degrees of the need to heal.

Truth be told (as politicians often say – if they only would!)  NO ONE but YOU can do the healing.  I will add in (because these are MY thoughts, and this is my place to offer up my thoughts), that if you have a belief system beyond yourself, life will be leaps and bounds easier to handle and the mountains less tenuous to climb.

I am fortunate because I have faith that cannot be shaken no matter how difficult my life become.  Honestly  life does not get easier as you age, it gets harder.

BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN you cannot have laughter, and joy, and love, and reapall the rewards we humans still have available.

The key is how you CHOOSE to respond to your own problems, and the tenderness with which you CHOOSE to have understanding and forgiveness of others.  Personally, I can NEVER hold a grudge.  Being unforgiving and judgemental festers inside you like an infected sore.  When you forgive (even if you don’t mean it at first), you begin to heal from within!  REALLY.  You release ugly and negative thoughts, and are able to use your own healing powers for yourself!

Another great way to handle stress of invisible problems is to breathe.  Get plenty of oxygen and your body will “think” better and “feel” better.  It is THE WAY of your body. Think about it.  Slow or stop breathing and what happens?  Less oxygen, less optimal thinking and healing, and ultimately death!  So is it important?  What do you think?

Lastly, I guarantee I have at least thirty to forty things going on within me physically and mentally that no one can ever understanding.  But what I realize is it is UP TO ME to handle it all.  I tried being miserable.  It sucked.  So I gave it up!

Besides I use a trick.  I don’t know when it began, perhaps in the womb, but when an unexpected scenario confronts me, I ALWAYS try to find the humor in it – and laugh!  I know you can’t laugh at everything, but it doesn’t hurt to try.  Humor can really save your day, and your life!

You can rise above WHATEVER it is that is aching to pull you down.  Try not to exclusively dwell on the problems.  Divert your own attention by accomplishing tasks that lay before you.  When you feel like a pity party, TAKE A BREATH – think of it like ammo and a secret weapon.  It is.  If you think this is all pie in the sky and just words –

YOU WOULD BE WRONG!  I would not waste my precious moments, and each moment is precious to me, expounding on words with no meaning.  Thoughts with no depth.

So please think about it.  Read this again. I am serious. You won’t waste the minute it takes, and this time think about applying it to your life!  You must get into the habit of this way of thinking.  We are creatures of habit.  Please read it again and this time think about it with YOU IN MIND.

REPETITION IS THE MOTHER OF ALL LEARNING. Repetition is the mother of all learning. Repetition is the mother of all learning. Repetition is the mother of all learning.  Now close your eyes and say it.

God bless you, and I so very much mean it!  Flowers for you courtesy Park City, Utah  I have no idea what kind they are but it looked like they were placed gently on top of these bushes, and they were beautiful!Park City FlowersJPG.jpg

 

Here is the Confession

September 6, 2016

Here is the confession. Since my accident and incidents therein,

Too often I fall into deep depression.

 

I know in cyberspace there are fellow humans of like mind,

sometimes we search for answers, but answers do not find.

 

There is nothing shameful about having depression you see,

It happens in this lifetime, next door and across the sea,

It happens to us all -to you, and even me.

 

We are human. We feel love, terror, and pain, trauma.

Depression can hit us all – depression is not drama!

 

I awoke this morning covered with sorrow like dense fog.

Unable to find the departure, chained like a wild dog.

 

“What is the purpose of life?” I thought. My life is changed forever, and not for better.

I had a pity party – a pitiful one – no one came.

 

It was only I, raging like I was waging a war against myself.

Then praying, while rather insane, I placed my mind upon a shelf.

 

At last I thought, I knew what to do. Divert my own attention to something else……and maybe you should too.

 

So I left the room I was working in, took a breath or two and dropped to my knees.

“Give me help dear Lord, I prayed, let my heart feel at peace, if you please.”

 

Here I lay in bed, with laptop resting on my legs.

Writing simple poetry, trying to turn a phrase.

 

If I dwell on my sorrow, and cry and whimper, I will to hell cross the line,

Then I won’t smile or have joy in this moment of time.

 

All we have is this moment to live,

I must turn my thoughts not to get, but to love and to give.

 

I lay here and realize I still can write.

I can see in the daytime, and find rest at night.

 

Within there is a flicker of my light that should shine for many reasons I know.

I will find a few to jostle my memory, and wrestle depression with strength just to show….

 

I can DO whatever I think I can! My sorrows are few compared to many a man.

I do not know how much I time I have left to look at my life – nor days to enjoy.

 

I want to be an example of faith and of love,

I will keep praying for power from that of above.

 

I AM better already, can you read and see? Like I would with a child who needs help,

I diverted my own attention, and the task set me free.

 

Change your thoughts, change your emotions.

Use your wits to climb from the pits.

 

You may think this a silly poem, and some might think it not a poem at all.

But by taking the time to write it I kept myself from a major fall!

 

Do not stumble, do not muddle your thoughts to far worse than it is!

Now what was the stress management technique I used?

Ah, yes,….this is a quiz!

 

Simple and easy what to do – divert your attention – and God will bless you!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is a post I have republished before….HUMOR. My girlfriend’s complaints about aging.

August 26, 2016

Why is the only hair on my body that hasn’t turned gray the long black hair growing from my nose?

Why didn’t anyone ever tell me that not only would everything “drop” as I aged, but my feet would also get bigger?

Why was I only told my bones would get weaker as I aged, and not that I would grow bony protrusions and knobby outgrowths everywhere on my body?

Why didn’t anybody tell me I would not only gain more wisdom than ever in my lifetime, but no body would listen to me?

How did I somehow miss that men not only loose their hair and get a receding hairline – but women often do as well?

I thought only Pinocchio’s nose grew bigger.

Why is it when you successfully age with good health no one will honor that with reasonable life insurance…every year I stay healthy my insurance rates go up!

You know the joy of having less hair to shave on your legs when you age is diminished by the fact all that hair grows on your face.

“Smile wrinkles” show you are happy. That’s crap. Just another group of wrinkles on your face.

I can eat the same food I always did, exercise the same, and still, when I look into the mirror I can see the fat accumulating on my stomach, hips and thighs. If I try to loose weight more wrinkles appear – gain it – my boobs hang down even further.

Shirley Temple can have dimples.   I am sick of the dimples all over my body. And no matter what anybody tries to sell you – they will never go away once you have them!

Okay stop eating candy and rub cream all over your legs. The dimples will still increase and you won’t get to eat your sugar quota or have the money to buy it!

Being a grandma is great. Being the built in baby sitter isn’t.

I was in the yard picking up dog poop (with a shovel of course), and also getting rid of mushrooms that grow wild and can be poisonous to dogs. . “Ah ah”, I thought, “two of those huge mushrooms right in front of me.” I picked them up, and to my dismay, it was two firm pieces of dog poop! One thing about not using your glasses when you get older is you don’t see as well without them.

The next time I went out, it was with glasses on. I love autumn – all the colors, and the crunch of leaves beneath my feet. What I don’t love is picking up dog poop with my hand for the second time, thinking it was acorns! Guess it’s time to get new glasses.

I went to the doctor a few days ago. I knew I would be hooked up to acupuncture needles and laying flat on my tummy for 30 minutes, so I thought since I was loaded with nasty gas, I would step into the hall and relieve myself quickly before being called in. I looked to the right and up the stairs and released a loud and long fart. I had forgotten to look to the left – there was a woman a couple of feet away on her cell phone. I tried to pretend it didn’t happen and slipped back into the office quickly.

I remember when I was married to an ass, one time we were at our son’s pack meeting for cub scouts, sitting in the very back of a crowed room. He thought he would be funny and let a loud and enormous fart and turned to me and called my name loudly – and indignantly…. as if I’d done it. Everyone looked at me. Some giggled and others looked disgusted. He paid for that one later.

Why is it my nose is running all the time now, and with no place to go. The world gets more enclosed as you get older. Most people walk by and go “Ugh, an old person.” They try to get away quick as if they will catch being old. Well here is the news people, if you don’t get old you are dead!

I saw a commercial with two old people flirting, dancing and kissing. Even I was appalled. Take it to a motel, and make it one with no mirrors on the closet doors – follow the new adage – “what happens in the motel, stays in the motel.”

Lastly in my list of complaints about aging…I think the funniest of all. My girlfriend said she didn’t have her glasses on and she brushed her teeth with hemorrhoid cream. She said it made her gag and almost throw up. That’s not the funniest thing about this – she did it twice.! WEAR YOUR GLASSES GIRLFRIEND!